Almost 10 years

I've had DPDR for almost 10 years now. While I consider myself to be mostly recovered, the few symptoms that won't go away is the emotional blunting and the inability to recall certain memories. I got DPDR after leaving a tumultuous relationship at around 12-13 years old and now I'm 21. Part of me has accepted that this is probably my life now, but part of me also believes that my situation is hopeless and that I will never heal.

My emotional blunting has made relationships with others harder and people can't believe that I'm 21 and already have such a bad memory. I'm so tired of living as if I have a cloud for a brain.