Hello everyone,
I joined this forum recently and I’ve been lurking since.
It feels good to be here, to know there are people who are going through the same thing.
Most of the time I feel like I’m pure consciousness that was put in this body and sent down to earth without an instruction manual while most of the others got said instruction manual. This world and body feel wrong to me, none of this makes any sense and everything is either unreal or too real for me. My vision is weird, objects I see are glitching, or the floors are moving like the ocean when it’s calm, all this makes me feel even worse. On top of my vision problems I’m extremely sensitive to bright light and need to wear sunglasses when I’m exposed to bright light.
My brain feels clouded 24/7, there’s a constant fog that blocks memories and thoughts, it stops me from remembering and thinking most of the time. When I remember things and memories they feel as if they belong to a different person, as if I’ve never been there. It makes it hard for me to function in my daily life, to study and to do many simple things.
Every day I feel as if my consciousness is pulled out of my head into a place I can’t describe, I feel like I have to make a decision between this alien world I'm in right now and another alien world.
I don’t know what it feels like to be a normal person, I’m not even sure if I’ve ever experienced the world in a normal way.
Thank you for reading. ^^
I joined this forum recently and I’ve been lurking since.
It feels good to be here, to know there are people who are going through the same thing.
Most of the time I feel like I’m pure consciousness that was put in this body and sent down to earth without an instruction manual while most of the others got said instruction manual. This world and body feel wrong to me, none of this makes any sense and everything is either unreal or too real for me. My vision is weird, objects I see are glitching, or the floors are moving like the ocean when it’s calm, all this makes me feel even worse. On top of my vision problems I’m extremely sensitive to bright light and need to wear sunglasses when I’m exposed to bright light.
My brain feels clouded 24/7, there’s a constant fog that blocks memories and thoughts, it stops me from remembering and thinking most of the time. When I remember things and memories they feel as if they belong to a different person, as if I’ve never been there. It makes it hard for me to function in my daily life, to study and to do many simple things.
Every day I feel as if my consciousness is pulled out of my head into a place I can’t describe, I feel like I have to make a decision between this alien world I'm in right now and another alien world.
I don’t know what it feels like to be a normal person, I’m not even sure if I’ve ever experienced the world in a normal way.
Thank you for reading. ^^
