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I made a post not long ago trying to describe this weird neurological state I'll have for days. It is pure hell and renders me unable to really do anything or think properly. I have been trying to describe it for so long, and I finally found a way. I guess I am just ranting here, but I wonder if anybody relates or has anything to say.
To me, the best possible comparison of my state is too akathisia (aka an internal restlessness that is as close to a living hell as possible). I had it for a couple weeks while on Abilify, and it was easily one of the worst states of my life. Each second you are only focused on the restlessness, on the pain, and no matter what you do, it occupies every part of your day. It's almost impossible to understand if you've never experienced it, because it is a sensation that normal people never really experience. It's not in most peoples vocabulary. The closest thing is maybe restless legs, but that still is miles away from akathisia.
Likewise, the sensation in my brain is something that is nearly impossible to describe and takes up every living moment. Like akathisia, its not something you think about (though it just so happens to be in the brain), but rather it is very physical. I recognize that trying to bridge the mind/brain barrier is nearly impossible to describe so just entertain me. I am at least a little bit happier now that I have a slightly more decent way to describe my condition to doctors, but my outlook still looks bleak.
To me, the best possible comparison of my state is too akathisia (aka an internal restlessness that is as close to a living hell as possible). I had it for a couple weeks while on Abilify, and it was easily one of the worst states of my life. Each second you are only focused on the restlessness, on the pain, and no matter what you do, it occupies every part of your day. It's almost impossible to understand if you've never experienced it, because it is a sensation that normal people never really experience. It's not in most peoples vocabulary. The closest thing is maybe restless legs, but that still is miles away from akathisia.
Likewise, the sensation in my brain is something that is nearly impossible to describe and takes up every living moment. Like akathisia, its not something you think about (though it just so happens to be in the brain), but rather it is very physical. I recognize that trying to bridge the mind/brain barrier is nearly impossible to describe so just entertain me. I am at least a little bit happier now that I have a slightly more decent way to describe my condition to doctors, but my outlook still looks bleak.
