Jbdk - think about it this way. Do you have a choice ? Really, think about it. You can either tell your obsessions and anxiety to go screw themselves and get your ass on the train, and hopefully have a great time at your parents - and thus another step on the ladder upwards to regaining your life, or you can let the obsessions win again and go home feeling guilty, miserable, and one more step down on the ladder. It's not a matter of willpower, it's a matter of whether you are prepared to continually let your illness prevent you from being happy. It's a simple question with a simple answer. Yes or no ?
OK - if you force yourself onto the train, you may be wracked with panic and obsessions, but if you go home - you'll still be wracked with panic and obsessions, plus a healthy slice of guilt, a sense of failure..etc, etc. You have to start somewhere..
OK - if you force yourself onto the train, you may be wracked with panic and obsessions, but if you go home - you'll still be wracked with panic and obsessions, plus a healthy slice of guilt, a sense of failure..etc, etc. You have to start somewhere..
