Actually feeling good for once

This is a complete surprise to me.

Two days ago I couldn't sleep, I literally thought I was losing my mind. In fact I "knew" I was losing my mind. I was depressed, anxious, DP'ed in the extreme, even getting paranoid and delusional - I was seriously contemplating either ending it all or checking myself into a mental institution. I had never felt that weird before (whilst being sober , that is)

It seemed that recovery, if it was possible, was a mile away - that I'd need years of therapy to get there if I had any hope whatsoever of doing so at all.

And yet, now...I feel absolutely fine, perhaps for the first time in this last month or longer

I feel "myself" once more, at ease, relaxed, calm and content. These last few days memories I'd forgotten I had have been coming back...I'm starting to feel more "connected" with it al again.

If you were to say to me a few days ago that I'd be feeling fine now I would never have believed you.

I don't know what happened, but I hope this lasts a while. At least this glimmer of normality is enough to show that "me" is still here somewhere.

I just thought I'd share this with you to offer some hope. I honestly thought there was none a few days ago. I looked at many of your situations and saw mine as infinitely worse. I was the hopeless one, you all had a chance.

If I'm able to feel well for a little while, everyone here is as well.

Don't give up if you're feeling bad. Better times are ahead for most of us, I hope.

Here's to some other people feelings better soon.

Rob...