[BlueSkies]

Hey i'm Bryce. I started remembering things the day after christmas. I've been experiencing a lot of, i guess ptsd symptoms(?) along with the osdd stuff. All the peices are coming together and its like seeing my life for the first time. I won't go into all the symptoms and revelations ect, but I never imagined this would be so physically painful. It's like the physical damage just happened and i hurt.
It's like back then i sent all the pain into the future and now I'm catching it on the other end. I thought that "if i just get through this and get out I'll be okay and my life can start". Now if feels like... there is no getting out.
Sometimes i look down or in a mirror and my body looks damaged for a second. I know its not, but i feel how it looks even when im otherwise okay. When the recolection is done and i go back to "rational thinking" the physical pain hasn't stopped. Its like everyday a new "injury" sets in adding to it. I know its not real so i havent been taking any pain killers. I dont think that would help anymore than trying to stop the ringing by covering my ears. I feel like this would be so much easier if i could just observe my way through it but thats not working anymore.
P.s. if it was actually injuries i could know i just have to let my body heal and the pain will stop. If the signals arent coming from my body how do i know it will ever stop? 2 weeks so far and its getting worse not better.

 

[ameliaaria]

Hey i'm Bryce. I started remembering things the day after christmas. I've been experiencing a lot of, i guess ptsd symptoms(?) along with the osdd stuff. All the peices are coming together and its like seeing my life for the first time. I won't go into all the symptoms and revelations ect, but I never imagined this would be so physically painful. It's like the physical damage just happened and i hurt.
It's like back then i sent all the pain into the future and now I'm catching it on the other end. I thought that "if i just get through this and get out I'll be okay and my life can start". Now if feels like... there is no getting out.
Sometimes i look down or in a mirror and my body looks damaged for a second. I know its not, but i feel how it looks even when im otherwise okay. When the recolection is done and i go back to "rational thinking" the physical pain hasn't stopped. Its like everyday a new "injury" sets in adding to it. I know its not real so i havent been taking any pain killers. I dont think that would help anymore than trying to stop the ringing by covering my ears. I feel like this would be so much easier if i could just observe my way through it but thats not working anymore.
P.s. if it was actually injuries i could know i just have to let my body heal and the pain will stop. If the signals arent coming from my body how do i know it will ever stop? 2 weeks so far and its getting worse not better.

Self-care practices such as exercise, mindfulness, and healthy eating can help to alleviate some of the symptoms. Remember to take care of yourself and your physical well-being during this time.