[Imagine]

DP/DR has reached such an extreme for me that I'am worried I will lose complete control of my thoughts and actions.

Can anyone here relate to sleeping near 24/7?.

For the past few days I haven't ate, I've just slept and slept and slept. I went to sleep at 11 last night.... just woke up now, still tired.... its 7:45PM.

I just wanna sleep, I can't handle this.

 

[M A R S]

are you on any meds?

 

[Imagine]

60mg Citalopram (Cipramil/Celexa)

Have been for a few years.

 

[peacedove]

I can totally relate don't feel bad. I used to sleep all the time until I finally got a job... now though as soon as I get home it's so hard not to crawl back into bed and sleep. I give in a lot of the time.

Do you exercise? If you can manage to set aside like a half hour to exercise a day it will actually give you more energy throughout the day. Or even less than a half hour will do boost your energy. I need to start exercising again.

Force yourself to eat! Eat some fruit, vegetables, nuts, something.

 

[Imagine]

Basically my life at the moment is sleep, when I'm awake I can't grasp reality, even my own thoughts.

Short term, long term... whatever memory for me is all fucked up now also.

Like I said before... this is at its worst for me... soon I'm going to be on TRT... maybe that is just gonna push me over the edge.

My brain is on reset mode and I can't bear to live like this.

 

[Sojourner]

I would consult my doctor about this and work with him or her on adjusting the medicine.

You shouldn't accept years of feeling this way and not try different approaches viz a viz medicine, IMO.

 

[Imagine]

The killer question:

Can I not end up Psychotic or Handicapped in anyway because of this? Because I feel like one more nudge worse and I will be that way.

 

[Sojourner]

If you feel this bad under your present treatment, it seems to me that it is time to reexamine that treatment.

You ask a question that I am not qualified to answer -- nobody here is.

 

[Imagine]

The way things are going - I don't feel talking to my doctor about meds will do any good.

I don't even think I'll be alive let alone mentally stable in the next few days.

 

[Sojourner]

Why won't it do any good to talk to your doctor?

It's his or her JOB to deal precisely with you and your problems with your medicine.

 

[Imagine]

I have already asked my psychiatrist as far as meds go and she won't prescribe me anything else. She wants me off meds all together.

 

[Imagine]

And well... the doctor keeps sending me back to her... because I'm 17 the NHS won't allow me to see an adult Psychiatrist.

 

[Imagine]

Meaning: I'm stuck with a Psychiatrist who deals with situations suited to children.

 

[Sojourner]

Why are you "stuck" with that person? You have a right to have a doctor who will treat you properly.

Aren't there universities and medical centers in Glasgow? Can you call them and ask for help?

Is the UK filled with no medical care and incompetents? What's going on over there?????

 

[Imagine]

Well I have phoned my doctor... the only thing she says she can do is refer me to an ealier appointment to the psychiatrist I already have.

She won't do anything about the meds but at this point in time with me I don't think it will make a difference.

I'm so far gone its unbelievable, if I aint sleeping I'm suffering.

I look at my hand and ask myself... what is this strange shape? How do I know how to work this?

You know what if I knew the right words to use I could go on for hours at how disabling this is getting for me.

Whats this machine I'm typing into? Whats typing? What are these words I'm using?

Foreign.

Alternate reality.

Suffocating.

What to do?

Sleep.

 

[jc]

The killer question:

Can I not end up Psychotic or Handicapped in anyway because of this? Because I feel like one more nudge worse and I will be that way.

i think we all feel like this at some point,yesterday while i was out i had the same problem again moments where i would think about a scenario where i basically went bonkers but it doenst happen....at the moment my problem is lack of sleep i just wish i lived in a house where it was silent enough for me to sleep

 

[Guest]

Well I have phoned my doctor... the only thing she says she can do is refer me to an ealier appointment to the psychiatrist I already have.

She won't do anything about the meds but at this point in time with me I don't think it will make a difference.

I'm so far gone its unbelievable, if I aint sleeping I'm suffering.

I look at my hand and ask myself... what is this strange shape? How do I know how to work this?

You know what if I knew the right words to use I could go on for hours at how disabling this is getting for me.

Whats this machine I'm typing into? Whats typing? What are these words I'm using?

Foreign.

Alternate reality.

Suffocating.

What to do?

Sleep.

My friend, it would seem as though we are in quite the same boat. I am also 17, suffering from acute drug-induced DP/DR, and getting messed about by the shortcomings of the mediocre health care system we have come to know as the NHS.

Yes, I've seen various psychiatrists, each one has tried to prescribe me some drug or other. I just collect the them for their recreational value, or give them to close friends. I don't mean to paraphrase, but medicine is not the answer to DP - it just suppresses the issue, making it even harder to overcome it. The nature of these afflictions we've been strick with is terrible, but personally, I cannot allow myself to become dependant on any drug, or any incomptetent, half-measure psychiatric nurse. Damn the NHS and their apathy, I say.

You must look within and identify the real cause of DP yourself. I've been keeping dream logs, diaries, and have been partaking in meditation and other 'grounding' activities - I'm beginning to think that mine was caused by a lot of subconscious material not being successfully integrated during my last mushroom trip. It's taking time, but yes, of course recovery is possible without drugs.

You have to suck it up, that's all. There are many people who have worse disorders than us. Go inside the cancer ward at your local hospital if you think that you're hard done by. You need to distract yourself from the DP - get a job, pick up a hobby, spend time with your family, and do whatever is necessary to get back into reality. But screw psychiatrists. Seriously. They're mostly over-paid jackasses who couldn't give two shits about your welfare.

 

[Martinelv]

In answer to your killer question, the answer is an emphatic NO! You are not going insane, however terrible you feel. And oh boy, do I know how you feel. In fact, everyone on this board knows how you feel. It's the most horrific feeling, I think, that someone can experience while staying 'sane'!.

At 17, please don't think this is a life sentence, because it's not. My first experience of this horror struck me at 19, and I recovered. And if I can, then you can. No, scratch that, you will. But it's no good me just telling you this, you must believe it yourself, and start being proactive. I can understand your situation with the doctors and the NHS, and because of your age they will be reluctant to prescribe you any medication, but there are other ways. The solution isn't coming to come miraculously from some barely qualified mental health professional, it's going to come from you - with help and advice, support and empathy (not sympathy - it does you no good) from people who understand what you are going through.

You MUST be proactive about dealing with what you are going through. I'm not being hard on you mate, but by simply hoping that a pill is going to cure you and languishing in terror until that point arrives, you're just making things worse. For a start, and however awful you feel, go out and engage in the activities that you did before. Now. You are in control of your mind, despite what you think, you are 'just' suffering from DR/DP. You aren't going to go 'mad', you are suffering from the extreme effects of panic and anxiety.

I'm not going to let this go. I am furious that someone of your age has to go through this crap. It makes me sick to my stomach. If you want to chat, then PM me and I will give you my mobile number. I'm not much help at offering advice, but as someone who is has recovered, I can give you support.

 

[Imagine]

Thanks.

I must say it isn't so much the thought of going insane, its the fear of just being mentally gone.

I don't know exactly how to describe it but it feels as though my mind is dissappearing fast, I'm worried I will become paralysed in my mind and just end up this living piece of meat that doesnt function itself.