I've been really confused lately. I remember questions nurses used to ask me during psychiatric evaluations and some of them were "Where are you right now?" " What year is it?" Stuff like that. And I thought it was kinda funny at the time, but not now.
I'll be in the car with my boyfriend and I'll completely forget where we're going and what day it is. I'll remember within a few mins. but it's really scary.
Lately I have to think really hard about whether it's 2005 or 2006.
Ok so this isn't schizophrenia... but I don't know I still feel on the brink of it. I read that most women become schizophrenic in their mid to late twenties. I'm 23. And with all this unreality shit for the past 17 yrs, well I don't know I guess I'm just waiting for something to come of it.
I'm not making sense.... oh I'm really paranoid too. I always think people are laughing at me. And when I go to restaurants I'm sometimes scared that the workers put stuff in my food like LSD. I eat my food anyways and so far no LSD... but I still worry about it at times.
I have many theories for how I became DP'd. One of them is I was abducted by aliens when I was a child and this DP is an experiment they're performing on me. So thinking this as a serious possiblilty makes me feel schizophrenic.
And then there are times when I think I'd be better off if I was schizophrenic. Someone on this board sounded like she's perfectly content being schizophrenic. Man, if I could be content I'd trade DP for schizophrenia any day. Who cares if I'm not in reality, but think I am and everyone else is wrong... as long as I'm happy and not hurting people right?
I'll be in the car with my boyfriend and I'll completely forget where we're going and what day it is. I'll remember within a few mins. but it's really scary.
Lately I have to think really hard about whether it's 2005 or 2006.
Ok so this isn't schizophrenia... but I don't know I still feel on the brink of it. I read that most women become schizophrenic in their mid to late twenties. I'm 23. And with all this unreality shit for the past 17 yrs, well I don't know I guess I'm just waiting for something to come of it.
I'm not making sense.... oh I'm really paranoid too. I always think people are laughing at me. And when I go to restaurants I'm sometimes scared that the workers put stuff in my food like LSD. I eat my food anyways and so far no LSD... but I still worry about it at times.
I have many theories for how I became DP'd. One of them is I was abducted by aliens when I was a child and this DP is an experiment they're performing on me. So thinking this as a serious possiblilty makes me feel schizophrenic.
And then there are times when I think I'd be better off if I was schizophrenic. Someone on this board sounded like she's perfectly content being schizophrenic. Man, if I could be content I'd trade DP for schizophrenia any day. Who cares if I'm not in reality, but think I am and everyone else is wrong... as long as I'm happy and not hurting people right?