sc, this morning I woke up feeling completely drained, frustrated, sad and totally lost thinking will this nightmare ever end? Will I ever just feel like a person again? Where did you I go? What is this illness? God what are we truly dealing with here? I could ask myself alot more of these kind of questions and could probably be asking them for a very long time. Is there an answer to be found? After thinking about all this for a moment I decided to just go my computer and go to where I feel there is a place I belong, a place where others understand what it is like to feel this way.
I read your post sc, and I do sympathize with you, I know how truly painful it is to live in this day after day. If it is okay to give a little advice, it may not be what you would like to here, but that is okay it would be up to you. I know at some time in your life you loved the ex-girlfriend and it was probably a wonderful feeling to be in love and have all the dreams just waiting for you. This person walked away and you were totally devastated by it. Now after you have a wife and little ones to think of your first priority should be them and yourself especially you. You are worth being respected and treated better than you were at some time and even now. To bring these problems this woman has to you is not a good thing, I would not think so anyway. Focus on you and your family. Family stick together through good times and bad times, well we hope they do, sometimes not always but if you have a family do not let the problems of someone else destroy this. This woman needs to get help for herself and go on with her life. As for the illness and how you are suffering my heart goes out to you I know how you feel, it is a horrible illness to be in. We have to hold on to hope that someday we will be better until then sc, think of you first, do not try to take on the problems of the world. You deserve good things and in time life will give those good things. Some days we may not believe that but I am happy when I can do just the simple things in a day, like getting up and trying my hardest for feel good and do the best I can in what I live.