This sucks really, for you, for your mother and for your grandmother and perhaps SSRIs are doing more bad than good, in general I am not sure of that but even if it was true I don't see how this proves medicines are useless in psychiatry. I understand your anger against psychiatry. I mean, i can't be in your shoes but I understand how you could have reasons to be angry, just like i am angry against most psychiatrists i have seen. But not long ago you were willing to admit that psilocybin or MDMA might cure dpdr. So it seems you agree that molecules can heal your soul, but you hate big pharma. That would be fine by me because I am not going to defend the pharmaceutical industry. But just because the pharmaceutical industry sucks doesn't mean that molecules can't cure us. The world would be simpler if bad people could only produce bad stuff, but I don't believe that, all the more if it can increase their profits margins.well i can very well understand why you dont get this because it seems your humanbeing functions are completely vanished from your dpdr. we are human. we are not robots where you can install a new program or just put some motor oil in it so it can work well. humanbeing doesnt function like this. i mentioned this once but okay nice, again. both my mother and my grandma they took ssri for over 10 years my grandma even more than 30 years. they both became completely different human. cold, flat, dumb just like a robot. this is not how humanbeing works. if you consider yourself as a robot where you can turn a few screws and everything is ok, great. medicine is completely moneymaking mafia. me as a german need to pay my whole life more than 1 million euros for an insurance, i maybe never will need in the future. the problem of you is you are atheist and you hate everything spritual. therefore you clinge on the idea that you can impact the brain with medication and modulate it. in my opinion and beliefs there is something like the soul. and just like how ridiculous it is for you to believe in a god or something the same i think about a physical fucking pill that should heal my soul.
Then regarding depression and serotonin, i have already answered you in a recent post.