[dissoziation]

Two weeks ago, I was temporarily hospitalized because I had dislocated my knee while at school. There was a lot of screaming and pain, several of the 'higher-up' staff members were there to see it, fire department and ambulance was called. Throughout the whole ordeal, I couldn't stop thinking and saying "this can't be happening". I guess you could say that my DPDR temporarily came back. When it first happened, I didn't believe that it was occurring and that it was something unreal, like a hallucination, but the pain was real and everyone else could see it. I haven't experienced anything like this for about five years and it happened to my good knee, which probably contributed to my disbelief of why everything was happening. One moment I was trying to casually throw myself down to sit into a chair, the next I was in extreme pain and my kneecap was out of place.

Though I've accepted that this is real now, I'm still frustrated that this happened in the first place and that every little aspect of daily life is affected because of this injury. Can't bend my knee. Can't put socks and shoes on normally. Can't get into the shower. I just wish I could sleep until this passes. I can't stand to be awake with me having to go through this again.

 

[ThoughtOnFire]

I had my knee dislocated in school too That shit hurts like hell! Sorry that you had to go through that, hope you get better soon!

 

[dissoziation]

I had my knee dislocated in school too That shit hurts like hell! Sorry that you had to go through that, hope you get better soon!

It really does. I'm thinking of returning to school this week, but I don't want to return immediately. I know that people miss me but there's still a part of me that's simultaneously afraid to go but I wanna spoil myself with a few more days off. Thank you, though! I appreciate it.