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I've come to notice that every once in awhile I am able to induce an almost psychedelic state of bliss. The usually happens when I listen to poignant music or what not (esp. music from the different parts of my life). Of course, my DP and HPPD are still very much present, but things shift into an almost 'good trip', if you get what I mean. The physical aspects of this phenomenon are usually things such as shivers up and down the spine, goose-bumps, and an almost warm and fuzzy feeling reminiscent of childhood.

It is also for this reason that I am beginning to have doubts about myself having DP. I feel as though I am very much 'in reality', it's just that I have continual deep thoughts about humans' existence in general, cognitive impairments, and other ailments. Almost as though I feel somewhat dumbed down.

So, my question to those suffering DP induced by hallucinogenics (namely psilocybin mushrooms, cannabis, and LSD) -- do you also experience rare feelings like this after being exposed to certain stimuli?

If any other DP sufferers out there wish to comment on this or share similar experiences, by all means, do so, I find this very fascinating.
 

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Dawn's Highway, I can sometimes switch my dp/dr trip into a positive one but this only happens once in a wile. Sometimes I can bring it on just by my thinking. But I get a lot of vibes from certain music like korn or the doors.
I woulndn't use the word bliss, but just a positive trip instead of a bad one.

and an almost warm and fuzzy feeling reminiscent of childhood.
Funny that you said this, when I was tripping I sometimes thought that I was a kid again like 6 or 7. I even feelt that my body got smaller.
This still happens to a lesser extent sometimes.

I wish I could have continued on the good trip forever. The good trips were fun. What I am going through now, SUCKS ASS!
 
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and an almost warm and fuzzy feeling reminiscent of childhood.
Funny that you said this, when I was tripping I sometimes thought that I was a kid again like 6 or 7. I even feelt that my body got smaller.
This still happens to a lesser extent sometimes.

I wish I could have continued on the good trip forever. The good trips were fun. What I am going through now, SUCKS ASS!
Amen brother, amen. I used to have the exact same feeling when I used to trip, especially with my one buddy. We'd lie down on grass and giggle at the sky with the same kind of infantile enthusiasm. I agree that the good trips were amazing -- in fact, I never did have a psychologically traumatic bad trip. The good ones just seemed to have caught up with me in the end.

Oh well, I guess we're paying the penance for our foolish indulgence. :roll:
 

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I got the childlike feeling alot when my friend would put the cartoons on.
When on acid, cartoons are cool as hell.

I never did have a psychologically traumatic bad trip.
You are more lucky than you will ever know.

A psychologically traumatic bad trip needs a new language to explain it's baddness, thats how bad it is.

When I had my worst moments, I was sure that God was evil.
 
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Nope, I got mine from high doses magic mushrooms. It's funny, though, because the mental trauma I've been afflicted with now is what I always considered to be a bad trip.

And damn, you must of had some bad ass visuals on acid. Do you have HPPD, too? I was about to take a couple blotters of LSD but then my friend backed out of the deal. In retrospect, as disappointed as I was back then, I guess it was for the best.
 

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I have also done shrooms and just about everything else. I personaly feel that shrooms gives a more positive and stronger trip than acid.
Shrooms can have a more poisonous feeling to it though.
My visuals were bad ass for a wile when I was on the drugs.
They always sucked because I only got them (strong), when I started into my bad trips. My first real visual was of a mini box of corn flakes that I just finished eating. After I was done eating them I looked into the box and seen maggets instead of crumbs.
I also had visions in the sky and visions of wormholes in the T.V. and on the wall. Sometimes I felt like I was inside the T.V., or that the T.V. was in 3D.
I feel sorry for the people with bad hppd.
I would have killed myself if I still had visions like I used to.
dp/dr and visions is just to much to live with.
 

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Whats your hppd like for you?

I just feel like everything is too bright.
Sometimes I see afterimages and tracers.
My reflection looks very strange and sometimes moves.
Peoples faces look stange and melted, sometimes it huts my eyes looking at others, like I can't focus or my eyes are poping out.
I always see things moving out of the corner of my eyes.
The sky still moves around once in a wile.

Thats about all for me, just minor stuff.

You probably know this but there is a good hppd board at http://www.hppdonline.com/board/ check it out.
 
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Whats your hppd like for you?

I just feel like everything is too bright.
Sometimes I see afterimages and tracers.
My reflection looks very strange and sometimes moves.
Peoples faces look stange and melted, sometimes it huts my eyes looking at others, like I can't focus or my eyes are poping out.
I always see things moving out of the corner of my eyes.
The sky still moves around once in a wile.

Thats about all for me, just minor stuff.

You probably know this but there is a good hppd board at http://www.hppdonline.com/board/ check it out.
Yeah, that's pretty much what I notice. I also see floaters and a lot of static in my vision. I feel much more sensitive to light, and yes, see negative after images of some objects. I also understand what you mean by sayiing your eyes are popping out... I feel as though a tremendous amount of strain has been placed on them.

Although, with time, the hallucinations will fade. I already feel that they are improving, and I've only had the condition for a couple months.
 

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Hey,

That's how I _got_ DP, inducing that kind of state, without drugs I mean. I had a bad experience on drugs, and that made me able to meditate to all kinds of amazing places, which I thought I had control of, but...obviously didn't. It's drawn me back in when I've been almost better too, it's impossible not to want to feel the way that the good feels, it's like trying not to swallow something that's resting on top of your tongue. Even though, of course, when I'm in hell I'd give anything just to feel real & touch solid things.

Some things make me feel like that without me choosing to as well, like the sky or anything beautiful, water especially, and some music. Being with other people who are taking drugs invariably makes me either good or bad as well. That's probably an obsessive thinking thing though, or just that people are confusing to be with when they're on drugs.

My writing feels really clumsy, I'm not very with it at the moment. Hope it makes sense.
 
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