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Two big things happened to me last summer that resulted in a breakdown last Fall. One being that my family was robbed of money that was for us from the Last Will of our great uncle who passed away and second being my parents heavily encouraging me to try out a job I was offered in California (I live in NJ). Now when I arrived in CA. I already had huge levels of anxiety and panic and since it was such a split descision to leave home. Eventually I freaked out and bailed out on the job and flew back to NJ, and found a local job. That was when the breakdown hit me. The aftermath. Now before last summer, I was great. No panic attacks for 3 years, some normal anxiety, no OCD. I felt normal! Now, I went on Wellbutrin during the Winter and eventuallyu bailed out on it since it did nothing for OCD or anxiety and I fell back into the bad depression and experienced for the first time really bad DP around February. I went back on Zoloft in late March and up till now, there has been great GREAT improvement. Occasionally I have set backs and like today the DR came back a little and my mind was empty and robotic again (nowhere as bad as it was before, but still uncomfortable and unplaseant) These setbacks kind of frighten me and was wondering if I'll ever get back to the way I was in the years 2001-2004. I am afraid that once I experienced the way I did during the winter, will I remain scarred with this forever. I never had it before. That's the problem with these setbacks; they tend to send back into feeling hopeless and elimnate your progress.