Ever since the last post (on this blog) I've been feeling a little better...Not too much, however. But I wake up and the feeling is lowered by about 5%, the same whenever I fall asleep (at night DP is way worse for me). During the day, I think the same, too.
I feel like that's good news, but I'm not expecting too much. With DP, as we all know, it's 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I feel like right now I'm on my step forward, but in a couple of weeks I'll be on my 2 steps back again.
I know it's not the best to think like that, with statistics and all, but there's really no other way I can explain it to you.
All I know is that I'm honestly very tired of this back and forth. I know one day I'll be recovered, and everything okay, but I'm still a human and I still have feelings, and I still get sad (even though at times I do not believe that I have feelings), no matter how positive I try to be.
I've learnt that when you're said, you really can't go away from it at will...you can't force yourself to be happy, but if you allow the sadness instead, the happiness will come to you gradually. But I'm just rambling now.
It wasn't a linear thing, it was kind of 2 steps foward and one step backwards, (sometimes a 4 steps foward, then 8 steps back, then 9 steps foward kind of thing) but I DO remember each month being better than the last.
When you're feeling shittier, it's really tough to imagine that you'll get better. When you feel how you did months ago, it can really feel like you're making no progress, which is beyond frustrating. During these times it's super important to try to look at the bigger picture if possible. It's not a linear recovery process. It's frustratingly slow, but from reading your posts I think you're on the right path.
It wasn't a linear thing, it was kind of 2 steps foward and one step backwards, (sometimes a 4 steps foward, then 8 steps back, then 9 steps foward kind of thing) but I DO remember each month being better than the last.
When you're feeling shittier, it's really tough to imagine that you'll get better. When you feel how you did months ago, it can really feel like you're making no progress, which is beyond frustrating. During these times it's super important to try to look at the bigger picture if possible. It's not a linear recovery process. It's frustratingly slow, but from reading your posts I think you're on the right path.
It is frustrating, it really is. I was already a person that didn't have much tolerance for these kinds of bullshit, and now it's worse.
I do try to look at the bigger picture, but I think we all know it's frustrating either way; But thank you so much for assuring me! Thank you for replying too ^3^
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