As an aside to this post, I was just listening to an indigo girls song and there was a line "I was hell-bent on agony"...this made me think a lot about myself. I think that many of us, even if we don't want to admit it, or even if we don't know it, are hell bent on agony, because we somehow feel that it makes us better people, or somehow justified in some way or another. We sabotage ourselves all the time when it comes to happiness. I know i have and do. Just an interesting thought.