What is it you want to know? I can tell you for a fact that these thought processes are possibly the most common of existential obsessions and i probably see this exact same obsession on here once per week. I went through a matrix phase myself back in '14/'15 and suffered solipsism which cleared up after a little while.
The reason why we get these thoughts is because when were anxious and dpd, the brain generates wierd perspectives on reality to which there are no answers to. The anxious mind doesnt have tolerence for uncertainty. I mean the sheer scope of potential questioning is literally limitless, and you're now veiwing your life through the lense of this existential question because they tend to come along like a freight train and stick in your head. When we're dpd, these thoughts seem very real and i lnow how difficult it is to separate it from reality.
Best advice i can give is to be an 'outside observer' and to start viewing these obsessions as simple thought forms randomly generated by the brain. The thing is, it's not actually YOU thats interested in this line of questioning, it's the brain thats doing it outside of your control. So let the thoughts come in and fly out without interracting. Then they'll diminish.
I can tell you with 100 percent certainty that it is dp/dr that is fueling your anxiety and vice versa. These thoughts are very normal and the thing is most ppl learn these thoughts or pick them up from reading other ppls posts which comes back to this site is good to have but it becomes an obsession where you spend all your hrs researching and trying to understand what your dealing with but in return you pick up other ppls thoughts and their stories making them your own sometimes. These thoughts would not bother you if you wasn’t feeling unreal etc. of course your going to question existence being it’s the number one thing that you don’t feel. The problem is your so much on edge and soooo distraught by your condition that these simple thoughts that you could usually laugh off becomes terrifying and sometimes almost believable. When you have psychosis you are not questioning psychosis. Yea sure they have strange thoughts also the difference is it doesn’t distress them like it does to you. If you had psychosis you would not be on here looking for reassurance trying to find other ppl with your thoughts. My best advice and it is the only advice you will ever need is to wean yourself off this page and start getting busy in life and surrounding yourself with friends and family. The more you are around ppl the more it will bring you back to the spot you was before dp/dr. Trust me when I say this. You are making your condition and your strange thoughts your number one priority everyday. You have to get out of the loop and start living. Focus on yourself in making areas of your life better but you have to stop reading about dp/dr. I cannot stress this enough. You will be fine. It’s very easy to get caught up in the weird thoughts to a point where it feels almost believable but remember your mind is just trying to rationalize why you feel the way you do and by feeding into to it and worrying yourself to death you are just adding stress to your already exhausted brain. It’s hard at first trust me I know. Very hard it you have to fake it til you make it. Force yourself to do the things you don’t want to do and stop researching. Trust me.
That’s the thing there isn’t anything wrong with you except you have become obsessed with what’s going on with you. Sure there are certain symptoms you have that are coming from stressing but you have to nip it at the bud and eventually stop. Stop feeding into it. Understand that the root of all this is anxiety. call it ocd call it dp/dr or whatever you want but the root is anxiety. The magic cure is simply over looking it and moving on. If everyone could do that and just relax when they experience this it would be gone within a short period but everyone starts obsessing and stressing making it so much worse. The brain just needed a break a dissociated. It’s very hard trust me I went through it 3 times and fell into the trap each time understanding more what not to do.
Well, by your own admission you were dpd. Dpdr can create a raft of co morbidites including anxiety, ocd and paranoia. Also analysing things rather than enjoying things, thats exactly what I do. My thought processes are so divergent from the norm but it's because I developed existential anxiety. Finally, fear of schizophrenia is also really common. Are you under the care of a mental health practitioner?
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