Hello everyone,start by saying im not from England or the states so my English is not perfect. Im a women, 32 years old,from Scandinavia and for 7 years ago i had a severe panic attac where i got froozen and felt like my "soul left the room". After tjis everything was fine for about 2 weeks and then i was gonna go out with my friend when suddenly i got this weird feeling i couldng put word on. Felt like i was "zooning out" and my friend felt far away. Contuined the night with alcohol but felt a intense fear about what was going on. The morning after i wake up feeling the sane but worse, the world didnt really feel unreal but just VERY different and numb. I went in to several panic attack that day and the month following i couldnt even function, the floor was going up and down,every sound i heard was intense, couldnt watch horror movies without getting panic attacs etc etc. Went to several doctors, no one understood. After a while i could start to function but the strange feeling and my extreme foggy head, anxiety has follow me up to this day.the world doesnt feel crisp, my memories feels like they dont belong to me, my "lifestory" is hacked in to pieces. I also have chronic fatigue, burning sensations in my body and a small chronic pressure in my head and sinues pain. BUT i got pregnany 3 years ago, and when my son was born i snapped back to the world and all my emotions that had been completly numbed came back. I loved him so much and was crying out of happiness for a week about the fact that i had reconnect. I had 6 monyh that was so good, but slowly my foggy head came back and my feelings for everything went numb again..including my son who felt like a stranger (such a horrible horrible sadness). This last 2 years i get glimpses of feelings that can last for some days and then numb again for olong periods. MY IDEA to what could be the CURE for this: oxytocin and dopamine, wich is realeased in a big amount after giving birth. Oxytocin, like u probably know, is important for empathy and feelings of love. MY QUESTIONS to you: does this sound like derealization? Even if i cant really say that life feels unreal but more foggy, distant, like i cant break through a invisible wall. What can cure this emotional numbness? I cant live like this anymore. MEDICATION: im eating lamictal at 250 mg and starting therapy soon. So grateful if somebody would like to answer my post.