[Imagine]

gettin' worse.

Too bad to explain.

 

[Milan]

Is it fear of depression?

 

[Imagine]

No, its just that my dp/dr is worsening so fast.... I'm worried where I will even be in a few days.

Insane/Crazy. Dead. Brain Damaged/Dead/Paralysed.

 

[Guest]

Anthony,
I have been wondering where you have been lately. I was hoping that you were doing so well that you just forgot all about this site. It seems that at times like these there is nobody or nothing that can bring you comfort or peace of mind. I am not an eloquent writer that can make everthing sound better by the words I type. I don't know how you feel and all I can say is that if what we are experiencing on a daily basis is similar, my heart truly bleeds for you. It feels like there is no way out, and that there is no chance of normalcy again. God I hope I am wrong and there is. Please take care of yourself and remember that there are people out there who truly know what you are going through and understand.
Katie

 

[Guest]

Anthony,
I have been wondering where you have been lately. I was hoping that you were doing so well that you just forgot all about this site. It seems that at times like these there is nobody or nothing that can bring you comfort or peace of mind. I am not an eloquent writer that can make everthing sound better by the words I type. I don't know how you feel and all I can say is that if what we are experiencing on a daily basis is similar, my heart truly bleeds for you. It feels like there is no way out, and that there is no chance of normalcy again. God I hope I am wrong and there is. Please take care of yourself and remember that there are people out there who truly know what you are going through and understand.
Katie

Sorry I got a little mouse happy and posted this twice!!!!!!

 

[Ben]

No, its just that my dp/dr is worsening so fast....

What have you actively done against it? In other words, what actions have you made to move directly against the DP? I'm not making assumptions about you at this point as I don't know your personal story, but having been in the depths before (thinking that I was nearly to snap myself), I look back and realize that, mostly, I was doing a lot of inner ruminating that didn't actually move me in any particular direction.

Don't allow youself to worry about your state until you have actively done ten things against it (volunteered time, written poetry, exercised, etc.) for a good couple months and still you're as worse as you were before.

The problem with DP is that we become so closed, so narrow during the bad times that the small ups and downs get magnified immensely and a small "bump" becomes "oh my god - here I go". Think of it as being afraid to fly; when the turbulence strikes you're severly panicked - but if you're calm and not afraid to fly, then the turbulence doesn't seem to affect you as much.

The parallels between this disorder and plane flight are very frequent to me as I used to be deathly afraid of flying: to the point where I would break out in cold sweats anytime I would board an airplane. We are all trapped in our bodies and our minds - like being trapped in an airplane at 30,000 feet - and we know, just as we know when we're on the airplane, that if our bodies or minds give out (if the engines give out, so to speak), that we're dead. This becomes very frightful to us - and our panic escalates as we become more sensitive to these things.

However, my fear of flying subsided after doing it many times and after learning a lot about the physics of flight and planes; and so my DP also subsided after living with it for many years and realizing that I never did crash when the turbulence was bad, and learning all about it. I took action against my fears and my disorders - simple as that.

I love to fly and will be pursuing a private license when I find the time - I also used to be afraid of tornados (spending hours hiding under my bed as a child out of fear of them), and now I chase them.

It's action against your fears that wins them, nothing else...action, action, action.