24/7 DPDR

Sunnyzara said:

Hi guys
Just in the mood to share my thoughts and feelings...
I've had DPDR for some time now... Had it before when I was younger and after this was able to continue with normal life.

The last 6 months have been rough.
My grandpa died, my aunt died, a family friends committed suicide and my partner of 10 years broke up with me 10 weeks ago.

Ever since my DPDR has been out of control 24/7...my thoughts don't feel like my own and I have a constant detachment from myself. Reality check is in tact... I can't seem to communicate but I will participate in a conversation almost automativay without even knowing how I do it.

I lost all sense of socializing.

Right now I am in the middle of getting my own place, getting all my stuff out of the home I had with my ex and trying so hard to just exist.

My mom got hospitalized during the move as she cut her finger and got a bad infection almost turning into sepsis.

I don't know what to do anymore.
Since I am expected to return to work on Monday (even just for a few hours) I just don't know how to do it.

I can't think straight can't concentrate and my memory is aweful... Can't event remember what I did yesterday without having to think really hard.

Ever since the breakup My GP has me on sleepmeds (Zopiclon) and I take some Oxazepam in the early morning hours when the Zopiclon stops working (advise of my GP)

I reached out to get therapy and my psychiatrist wants to put me on Zoloft but I am so scared of it and also making it worse.

I can't bear the thought of living in this state forever.... Pls someone help.

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