[Starwaves]

It was 2 years ago now that this constant DP/DR started for me.

I've tried all kinds of treatments (meds + therapy). I even went to an intensive in-patient therapy hospital for 4 weeks last year and it didn't help.

I stopped all my meds except for Klonopin a few days ago. I think I'm going to restart Zyprexa but no more anti-depressants for me.

I don't know what else to do now. It's just hard to exist like this... like existing is a chore. I think about suicide most days.

 

[nocturnalman]

Are you sure you are not just stuck with anxiety and depression ?
Many people when recovered from DR forget how they felt like before and everything that upsets them in future makes them believe they still have DR.
When I recovered from DR it took me some time to realize that I had OCD and anxiety before ,but everything that upset me during that time made blame it on having DR although I had no DR anymore.

And do not think ever about suicide.Your life ,even after years of suffering can suddenly turn to the best.You are a precious human being and suicide is not part of your nature.
Be positive ,even regard DR as something positive ,can you be sure that in case you did not get DR that your body could have handled the stress that caused it ?

 

[dope]

Please keep on keeping on! Continue living life, you're absolutely gonna make it!

 

[rob35235]

You're not alone. Believe me on that. Believe me.

 

[MusicaElectronica]

how long have you been on klonopin?

 

[Starwaves]

Hi everyone. I wanted to post an update.

I went back on medications. I'm taking 250 mg Clomipramine (a med that is said to be useful in treating DP/DR), Perphenazine 4 mg daily (an antipsychotic that should also help with depression), and I'm still on the Klonopin but am weaning off currently.

I am still having waves of suicidal thoughts that come out of nowhere. I haven't been very panicky at all but I do have anxiety throughout the day. I'm sleeping and eating okay.

I feel tired. I'm so sick of this shit! I just want to scream!