[MorebeingMe]

These are the 2 most challenging things i can get in this state.
There are many more, but i don't think i would mind just having those if i didn't have "these"
1. I'm not sure if i will survive with this, life is so hard to pull through at times,so it's not a good feeling to know there's a possibly of giving up.
I'm thinking that I would feel more confident, and more at ease if i knew i was going to make it, if i know i was going to go on, if i knew that i wanted to. There are certain "states" i slip into and feel that way, but it's usualy temp.

2. Heightened awareness
I'll never stress this enough, it has become a big hurdle.
Too aware of everyhting when you don't even feel like your in it.
Futurizing becomes overwhelming, cause you see it as, having to have the torturing "awareness" the next hour, and the next, never any breaks.
Never wanting to see, hear, feel, think anyhting, the only thing that sounds good is to get knocked out.

I think this is the best I can explain it, so can anyone relate?

 

[ShyTiger]

I can relate to both.#1. If you read through some posts you can see others have made there way out, so can you. I got out. I am back in and i am putting my faith in getting back out again,i just know that there is obviously for me, more learning to do. I think, thinking there is no way out is an unproductive way of thinking- as it doesn't lead to any future, so whats the harm in being an optomist. I know that when i think that way its because im thinking with a dp head and not a healthy one. #2. This for me is one of the most totureous symptoms! I feel for you. I went through this for 3 days solidly just a week ago and it is now easing up a little at a time. All i could really do is keep reminding myself that i was safe and it was safe for me to be present and keep relaxing my body and being gentle with myself and trying to cut down on stressors and panic thoughts and trying to focus on other things-computer games were good. I hope just knowing that you are not alone helps and that i am sure there is a way out! I refuse to accept any other alternative.