Well yesterday I got very close to killing myself. Existence just seemed against me. And I had the violent convulsions like you mentioned Vortimi but I get those with most of my worst panic attacks, so they weren't really what bothered me. I don't know if that was the drug or not. I kind of doubt it. But I'm interested in the thought of mood stabilisers... Every single day I have a hyperactive high, and a depressed nearing suicidal low. I am not classing it as bipolar, but I know I am more inclined to have bipolar as my mother and grandfather has it.
I tried thinking about going to the doctors today, but I don't know what to tell them. I'm on anticonvulsants, tranquillisers and antidepressants now and I don't see what else they can do for me. Sigh.
I know I always try to be positive on here but now I really don't feel like it. I just want to take all this pain, confusion and struggle away.
I guess I should listen to my signature :/