Hi, I have always had anxiety and was diagnosed with panic disorder when I was 13 years old. Before Christmas I finally felt like I had gotten a hold of my anxiety and was enjoying life. However I had a bad panic attack on Christmas Eve and multiple throughout Christmas day and I've been feel the after effects for months now. Ever since new years I haven't felt like myself at all. I can still recognise who I am, where I am and who is around me but I just don't feel connected. It's as if my whole sense of self has just gone out the window. It's been 3 months nearly 4 and I'm scared that I'm going to be this way forever and I'm never going to feel like me again. I keep having existential thoughts all the time and I just want it all to go away and I want to live my life like before. I constantly feel like I'm going crazy and I'm finding it really hard to even leave my house. I also keep having a fear that one day I'll wake up and forget who I am or my family and it's really hard to deal with. I keep fearing that I have other kinds of illnesses that it can't just be anxiety, like I keep fearing I have psychosis or something like that even though I know that's impossible as I have no hallucinations or anything along those lines. I am hoping that there is someone out there who can help me feel less alone and more sane. How did you get out of this? Will I ever feel like me again?