Okay so I have not had derealization for years but now I have other issues. I have anheadonia (not officially diagnosed) which sucks like i cant sit there and watch a movie unless i drink. I hate how i have to drink to feel pleasure in doing passive activities. The only things i get pleasure from is doing physical activities and playing video games. Everything else like chilling, watching movies, reading ,etc require alcohol but i want to quit. Its like I drink to feel better but i feel like crap to drink its a vicious cycle.