I guess this is my shout to the void. I'm Eli. I have MDD and GAD, but experience bouts of depersonalization often. I guess I'm just here looking for reassurance that I'm not as completely insane as I feel I am almost all the time. I'm in a clinical psych doctoral program so I know my shit, but...

My mind is blank, silent all the time, I feel like I have no "self," no inner monologue, and all I can feel is either a constant void/emptiness or sheer constant terror because of this. I wake up and feel nothing at all, no sense of time, just nothing. I can't enjoy anything, everything seems...

My head feels locked in neutrality and remoteness, I have a hard time accessing my thoughts and it feels like the voice in my head is gradually getting quieter the worst my condition gets. Simply processing the informations and memorizing simple things is a hassle, it's not just my emotions...