suicidal thoughts

Hello. Where do I even start? I don't know. My post might seem triggering to some, becasue I'm having a lot of suicidal thoughts and wishes. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not sure if I have depersonalization or anedonia, or both, or neither. First off, I'm only 16 years old, turning 17...

Roughly, 20 months ago I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder after I had a drug induced psychosis that lasted two months. I was on an antidepressant for six months (family encoruaged me to stop, their reasoning being *every* drug is harmful) and an antipsychotic, risperdal, for a year...

I was feeling absolutely horrific feelings of unreality yesterday and today, pretty much at my lowest; and I had been doing so well for about 3 weeks. However yesterday and today, I was 100% cut off from all reality. I had no sense of judgement, no sense of social cues (I had no concept of who I...

I don't know if this is because all of the meds i'm on but does anyone get suicidal thoughts when their DP is at its worst?