Hi, I wanted to know if there's someone else like this, or if there's someone that could just help me out with some advice. I'm a 19 year old, gay male who has a almost severe reaction to on-screen nudity. My heart starts to race and I become majorly depressed, most times suicidal, for no reason...

(This a literal excerpt from my diary that turned into a letter to members here on this Depersonalization Community that adresses events that occured around this time of last year.) "Just like I need to forgive Shelby and Callie and myself. Forgive myself... that's exactly it. Forgive myself...