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#393865 Discover the truth about the reallity !

Posted by Anersi on 20 November 2016 - 10:39 AM

#393857 Discover the truth about the reallity !

Posted by Anersi on 20 November 2016 - 10:09 AM

Everything is in the eyes of the beholder. The surrounding just is. Our world can be changed by drugs, or you can explore how everything works by thinking about it ( obsess for a dp person ) your discovery is not new or sensational. To obsess over these questions can make the world to be
very strange. You can find a book about these questions that is very interesting. The author, Tor Noerretranders is a danisch sience journalist and have published a book named the user illusion. Reading about these questions can make them less fearful and dramatic. To discover such things in a " dp mode " is of course unpleasant and gives a dp:er anxiety. But reading about it can sort of make it less dramatic and fearful, hopefully you can find your questions to be interesting one day. But its not easey, i know, i obsess over these questions as well..👍

#377199 What is this again?

Posted by Anersi on 15 August 2016 - 05:04 AM

Hello everybody.
I felt bit better like week ago, but now I've got a flu for a few days and I feel way worse.My body feels weak and weightless or something, especially when it comes to my legs.It's really weird and uncomfortable feeling, mainly when I'm walking.This is exactly how I was imagining walking on the my question is - could this be caused by the flu?I'm really freaking out again, so I will appreciate any answer.Thanks everybody for reading this.

Typical feversymptom..👍

#375830 Have had DP for over 2.5 years now, not triggered by weed

Posted by Anersi on 24 July 2016 - 05:18 AM

Hey everyone,
I've had DP for over 2.5 years now; when it started it was hell and I was all alone.. I suffered from emotional numbness, hyperawareness, obsessive intrusive thoughts, and massive anxiety associated with these thoughts. My DP wasn't triggered through weed or any kind of drugs like it seems to be with most cases.
It happened from having an existential crisis. I had a lot of free time in my hands, and I started to delve into existential thoughts.. trying to figure out if God existed, the nature of everything, whether we were in the matrix and understand reality as it is. I went for months literally thinking every second of every day, from the moment I woke up to the moment sleep overcame me. My brain was in overdrive for months. I was emailing scholars, challenging religions and philosophies including my own.. things like being unable to prove that we're not in the matrix drove me to the edge of madness. 
Eventually I tired and I decided after months of obsessing that I would just stop. I remember that moment. I was sitting on my laptop in front of an online debate/discussion I was having and I decided to just stop. And after that very moment, I started obsessing over what made things funny. What funny even IS. Like why are puns funny. Like so WHAT if that word sounds like that other word.. why does it illicit laughter.. and I started to panic. I felt like I forgot what funny even meant. And for months, I couldnt laugh. Because the moment something funny happened the very moment after I'd crack a smile or about to laugh, I'd almost spontaneously stop myself and start analyzing why why why. I couldnt get through a 20 min show like how I met your mother coz I'd pause and analyze every single joke and every single reaction. I'm not sure why I started obsessing over these things in particular. It just happened. Eventually I started forming my own theories and found out later that I had come up with previously established theories like the Benign Violation Theory. 
Once I stopped feeling as anxious about "funny" after making as much sense of it in my own way as I could, I'd just start obsessing over another random thing. This cycle happened over and over with literally everything that had to do with human emotions and interactions all the way up to sexuality. It's like I've had sensorimotor OCD but instead of it being on breathing or swallowing it's on things related to human emotions and behaviors. It's ruined my quality of life, robbed me of once in a life time moments, strained my relationships, and lost me a very lucrative job.
2.5 years later I can say I've made a ton of progress. I've worked on myself a lot, and learnt a lot about myself. It's ironic but in a way DP gives you the tools you need to manage it, since you're so hyperaware and introspective. Harris Harington's material on youtube was also very helpful. I spoke with Jeff Abugel on Facebook. I watched the movie numb. My faith helped me a lot as well. All of these combined have led me to this point in my recovery. I'm much more able to let go of my thoughts now. I'm no longer emotionally numb for the most part. I've come a long way. There's still room for improvement and while I don't know if I'll be able to make a full recovery, I will always strive for it.
Right now though I'm going through a bit of a setback. And I'm basically still all alone in this. Nobody around  me understands.. and while I can't expect them to, it still gets frustrating.. it's hurtful.. I can't help but feel abandoned. So I thought what better way than to connect with people who actually share some of my experiences. And so here I am, and this is my story. It's a pleasure to be here, and I hope that my experience has given you some insight and support in some way. I look forward to interacting with you all.
By the way, if I wanted to discuss something I been obsessing about, say like the philosophy of humor, as I mentioned above, what would be the best forum to post this in? Ultimately I find that the key is actually letting go, and not giving in to the obsessive thoughts, but sometimes I just cant help it! So yea.. I look forward to all your replies and posts :)

" what is funny " was one of my first obsession, folowed by, what is time, music. What is all this, wy me right now e.t.c....and that was not funny..

#368796 RE: Recovering from Marijuana Induced DP/DR

Posted by Anersi on 06 April 2016 - 03:18 PM

Its been about 3 months now, and I am feeling about 70 percent better. The thick shroud is now gone, and I can keep my mind focused. I do not have any anxiety anymore, and I can sleep well. 
I still keep my mind busy, and i do still have the drained brain feeling, as if I am coming through a long time hangover. Keep your head up everyone. I should be posting in the "recoveries" section soon :)
For all of you that love to post the negative messages..... you don't have to look far to know why you are not getting better. The first step is to change your attitude. 
Too many people on here are suck on a victim role. Get outside and live your life. You only have one.

I have suffered from episodic DP / DR for 35 years induced by Weed, and it has absolutely nothing to do with a " victim role." just comes back when you least expect it..

#360278 Nocturnal Panic attacks

Posted by Anersi on 14 November 2015 - 06:12 AM

I've recently been having this really weird thing happen to me when I am laying in bed trying to fall asleep. I'll be laying in bed and next thing I know BAM! I feel this intense feeling of fear and I feel disoriented and I feel like i'm in between being awake and sleeping which is weird because I clearly remember being awake before it happened, it's the most terrifying feeling ever because I cant tell whats real, and my heart is beating super fast and I can't help but cry because I feel like i'm losing my mind and Im afraid it might happen :(

That is very, very common for everybody now and then, its completely normal to feel fear and disoriented in that moment. You can find information about that state from internet..👍