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Basically Recovered- med route

01 November 2016 - 11:12 AM

Hey guys, I've been on zoloft for about 10 weeks now and abilify for about 3 weeks.  This combo has cleared the fog and given me a clear hope and feeling of inner peace.  I've lived with anxiety for so long in my life that I don't know if I've ever known what normal is.  As well as depression.  I have tried many meds and usually give up around the 4 week mark but I think that has been my depression telling me its not working or going to work.  This time I was patient with the zoloft and all the sudden its like my mind has been pieced back together.


Patience is key with meds guys.  It's so hard I know to give yourself proper time and care when we feel like such shit all the time but that's really what you need for the meds to work.  Be kind to yourself, keep hope that things will be ok and try to be optimistic that your med will work.  I went to a job meeting today and felt connected to the lady and things went smoothly, I felt like myself.  


I've been dealing with 5 years of chronic dp so I'm in quite the hole as far as my life goes but now I feel like I will be able to move forward and try to find something I will enjoy again.  Don't let the depression that comes along with dp stop you from staying on your medication long enough for it to work..  That's my advice and good luck to all.

7 day fast

17 September 2016 - 03:15 PM

I'm going to be doing a seven day fast to try to rid myself of the demons and only drinking water... Today is day 1 I shall be updating how i feel each day and how my mind is affected..... if anyone wants to join in the cause go for it.  PEACE

dont know how to act anymore

13 July 2016 - 09:11 PM

im going to move back in with my parents for a couple months while i work on getting my cdl.  I really am lost at this point, my pride has seem to be stripped from me and i feel like complete shit.  I dont know how to be with this disorder anymore and im still feeling worse than ever coming off celexa, before celexa i seemed to have insights from the dp and somewhat of a hope, now i feel ive completely lost any insights i had and feel like my mind has died or collapsed into itself because of all the panic and depression of everything.  around my family i dont know whether to panic and play out the negativity inside me or try to play it cool.  both ways dont work. if i panic then they panic and thats not what i need or want, if i try to play it cool and go with it i feel like im lying to them and being something im not which causes guilt and more panic inside me that i supress.   I feel really scared at this point, I would tell anyone who is having struggles with dp to be careful with ssris, i know they are usually harmless and help some but just be careful.  i feel like my body is always in a defense mode so its unable to take suggestions from people or get help in the moment bc my body is always in a state of defense so it wont allow help.... i feel fucked