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#384977 Basically Recovered- med route

Posted by meekah on 01 November 2016 - 11:53 PM

How long did it take to work? Im on zyprexa and fluvoxamine and its been a month. Some days are better than others and Im able to function better but its still there.


It took honestly 10 weeks now for the zoloft  to really start to flip a switch for me.  abilify I've only been on around 3 weeks.  I was on zyprexa but it made my body feel weak and hungry and lethargic....if thats the case for you I would maybe switch to abilify.  but if zyprexa isn't giving you bad side effects I would stick with it for another month just my opinion, I'm not a doctor or anything though of course.

#384641 Basically Recovered- med route

Posted by meekah on 01 November 2016 - 11:12 AM

Hey guys, I've been on zoloft for about 10 weeks now and abilify for about 3 weeks.  This combo has cleared the fog and given me a clear hope and feeling of inner peace.  I've lived with anxiety for so long in my life that I don't know if I've ever known what normal is.  As well as depression.  I have tried many meds and usually give up around the 4 week mark but I think that has been my depression telling me its not working or going to work.  This time I was patient with the zoloft and all the sudden its like my mind has been pieced back together.


Patience is key with meds guys.  It's so hard I know to give yourself proper time and care when we feel like such shit all the time but that's really what you need for the meds to work.  Be kind to yourself, keep hope that things will be ok and try to be optimistic that your med will work.  I went to a job meeting today and felt connected to the lady and things went smoothly, I felt like myself.  


I've been dealing with 5 years of chronic dp so I'm in quite the hole as far as my life goes but now I feel like I will be able to move forward and try to find something I will enjoy again.  Don't let the depression that comes along with dp stop you from staying on your medication long enough for it to work..  That's my advice and good luck to all.

#382089 people think that i'm retarded..

Posted by meekah on 27 October 2016 - 11:16 AM

yea man , i worked at walmart its actually a decent job to have with dp because there seems to be alot of "slow" people working there... Just ignore that person, they don't know shit about you. 

#379588 Anyone else?

Posted by meekah on 29 September 2016 - 09:52 AM

it seems there is an analytical approach and an emotional approach to helping people.  Alot of people seem desensitized to giving an answer from a human approach.  Giving a human answer usually involves encouragement and telling someone everything will be ok and repairing someones fear response in doing so.  Thats what people are looking for on this forum, help!! not an analytical scientific reality approach and straight edge answer.  People who have been paralyzed by fear give these responses and pass there own fears on... some people shouldnt be offering help.

#379013 7 day fast

Posted by meekah on 17 September 2016 - 03:15 PM

I'm going to be doing a seven day fast to try to rid myself of the demons and only drinking water... Today is day 1 I shall be updating how i feel each day and how my mind is affected..... if anyone wants to join in the cause go for it.  PEACE

#378482 Thoughts of being disturbed\scared about being alive

Posted by meekah on 06 September 2016 - 09:03 AM

please update us when you get a chance, this sounds alot like dp when I first got it.  I'm also on olanzpine aka zyprexa, it's helping me I think, my thoughts aren't as scary.

#376320 cannaboids is really a reason of dp/dr?

Posted by meekah on 31 July 2016 - 03:24 PM

yea thats true, thats how i felt when i i had to face my fears but it was terrifying so i just detatched even tho the weed was trying to balance me out... so really at the core its our own inner demons that end up causing dp... maijuana is definitely a catalyst though to those who aren't ready to smoke weed, if it doesn't feel good in your heart than you shouldn't do it. gotta face fear head on.

#375980 cannaboids is really a reason of dp/dr?

Posted by meekah on 27 July 2016 - 10:05 AM

ive never heard of cannaboids causing dp , its the thc that causes it in marijuana... 

#375352 dont know how to act anymore

Posted by meekah on 13 July 2016 - 09:11 PM

im going to move back in with my parents for a couple months while i work on getting my cdl.  I really am lost at this point, my pride has seem to be stripped from me and i feel like complete shit.  I dont know how to be with this disorder anymore and im still feeling worse than ever coming off celexa, before celexa i seemed to have insights from the dp and somewhat of a hope, now i feel ive completely lost any insights i had and feel like my mind has died or collapsed into itself because of all the panic and depression of everything.  around my family i dont know whether to panic and play out the negativity inside me or try to play it cool.  both ways dont work. if i panic then they panic and thats not what i need or want, if i try to play it cool and go with it i feel like im lying to them and being something im not which causes guilt and more panic inside me that i supress.   I feel really scared at this point, I would tell anyone who is having struggles with dp to be careful with ssris, i know they are usually harmless and help some but just be careful.  i feel like my body is always in a defense mode so its unable to take suggestions from people or get help in the moment bc my body is always in a state of defense so it wont allow help.... i feel fucked

#373464 DPDR + MDMA = ?

Posted by meekah on 12 June 2016 - 06:51 PM

Even if it works against depersonalization it will probably not do for good but require to be used repeatedly. This is a problem, because MDMA is neurotoxic, so it will surely have some nasty long-term effects.

 thats actually why mdma is the one drug that is good for trauma because you can literally rewire pathways during therapy while the fear response is muted when in normal therapy trying to process the events usually ends with being retraumatized...   look up mdma use for ptsd....

and just because something triggers dp/dr isnt really a reason that it can't work against it I mean all the medications given out for dp/dr have caused dp/dr in some people, so again, not really an argument against the use of it... in the proper setting.

#373066 Do you feel emotions?

Posted by meekah on 06 June 2016 - 02:15 PM

yea celexa has made me even more dp'd than ive ever been, seems to help some people though.  i feel like part of my nervous system shut off or something, and all i feel is nothingness and death... 

#360869 Hi I'm Michael

Posted by meekah on 27 November 2015 - 07:47 PM

Amina is right i second her opinion

#358930 Loss of ego boundaries

Posted by meekah on 16 October 2015 - 12:36 AM

someone took too much acid