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Sudden return to dp after weeks of feeling fine!

23 May 2016 - 10:36 AM

I haven't logged into here for weeks or maybe even months because my symptoms just seemed to go away. I didn't just wake up one day an suddenly feel normal, it was very gradualy, but then I thought about it and realised I had felt fine for ages. (Probably a comibnation of handling stress better, not drinking, coming off anti-depressants etc).

Then today I just suddenly woke up feeling super unreal, like I wanted to jump in front of a car just to prove I wasn't still dreaming! I went for a long run and felt slightly better but still not normal.. not sure if I was too cocky by starting to drink again but surely that can't be enough ? Really hope it's just a one off and not that I've gone right back to where I was!!

Anyone else had anything like this??


DP/DR and asexuality

11 October 2015 - 03:48 AM

Hi guys,


for as long as I can remember (bearing in mind my memory is seriously cloudy) I've always been confused about why sex plays such a big role in society, felt isolated when people talk about sex, and see it more as any other activity I could do with my boyfriend (like baking a cake, playing video games) rather than view it sexually.


A friend told me to look up asexulity; I did, and it explains my symtpoms perfectly. The thing is, I don't know if I always felt like this, or if my mental health has just severely affected my sex drive. The detachedness of asexulity has a lot in common with my other DP/DR symptoms.


I guess I was just wondering how DP/DR has affected other people's sex drives, whether I am inherently asexual or if its just another symptom.



Does talking about DP/DR help?

29 May 2015 - 07:29 AM

As I've been struggling with dp/dr for a long time without really understanding what was happening to me and having no one to talk about I can't tell if reading about people in similiar situations is helpful or not: is it comforting to realise that so many people have the same symptoms and that I'm not alone, or does it make me concentrate on my symptoms more and make me more aware and thus more anxious?


What does everyone else find?



Constant dream-like state

27 May 2015 - 11:45 AM

Hi everyone,

I'm 19, female. Just want to share my feelings with people who understand!


I can't remember how or when I started feeling like this (my memory is affected by it really badly, everything is hazy) but it's been about 2 years. I constantly feel like I'm in a dream, I talk to people but it's like I have no part in the thought-process. I feel completely isolated from everyone like I'm in a bubble.


Most of the time I try not the think about it because if I do I feel really panicky and hopeless. If it never ends then I don't feel like there's much point being here because I feel so numb and detached!


I was diagnosed with depression about 8 months ago and am taking 20mg of citalopram a day as well as seeing a therapist. I hoped this would help with my detachment but if anything it's worse. I try to talk to my therapist about it but he doesn't seem to understand the extent of it; he says its probably down to stress, and focuses on my depression, but it is my dream-like state which causes most of my stress!


I have a really supportive boyfriend but it's difficult to talk to him because he has no idea what it's like. I know that I love him but the actual feelings of love disappeared with my dissociative state. I don't experience any sensations anymore!


I'd love to talk to people who feel the same, because it's a very lonely place to be.

Thanks for listening x