Hey there bluewine,
Welcome to the forum!
You can find lots of advice usually in the recovery stories section.
But along the way to healing, it's important to keep up on things like hygiene, household chores, etc.
I'd also advise to find joy in the simple things, like a cup of coffee, a small talk conversation with a friend, family, and so on.
Also know that if your loved ones or even strangers knew what you are going through that they would be really proud of you, and astounded how strong we are.
And, though you feel disconnected from your people, and if that bothers you, then deep down you do still care and love them, this is a just a temporary condition.
- AnnaGiulia and bluewine like this