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#627202 Percent?

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 28 November 2020 - 04:38 PM

Typically it's viewed as "how they are feeling"


Like I consider myself 85% to 95% recovered.


But it's like, what is that last amount?


When is enough going to be enough? 


It's very puzzling if you ask me.

#627200 I found a cure/treatment!

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 28 November 2020 - 04:29 PM

Any further argumentative posts here, (and elsewhere), will be deleted.

#624508 How do you guys live with dp/dr?

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 20 October 2020 - 07:58 PM

In my own experience I'd say the Symptoms have always remained constant, but after a while I grew stronger. 

#619328 Enlightenment's Evil Twin

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 08 July 2020 - 11:46 AM

#614980 The No-Cure Model

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 18 February 2020 - 03:59 PM

Been this way for 16.5 years now. I've gradually gotten ALOT better over time. But finally to get completely over it, I'm now accepting that is is 'me' who will emerge from this. See, all this time I've always believed there was a cure, a way out, a recovery. But I subconsciously held on to the belief that the transformation would "kill" the DP'd me. But now I understand who I am in DP, will be the same one to cross back over to reality. Rather than some kind of "DP Ego" Death.

#614676 Safe to use?

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 12 February 2020 - 02:29 PM

I've found antihistamines improve brain fog, ironically. Specifically I take the Costco Brand of Zyrtec... MUCH less costly! It's called Aller-tec.

#613516 DP/DR Theme Songs

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 28 January 2020 - 01:26 AM

A while back I asked the Community to post their DP/DR songs and then I made a playlist of them all.


Here they are:

#611140 Need answers

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 17 December 2019 - 12:23 PM

Even the most sane person would not do well isolating like that.

#608284 it seems to me that most.people who suffer from dp/dr are caucasian

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 23 October 2019 - 09:59 AM

I'm locking this thread. It seems most of the counter arguments to the OP have been made. It's obvious that mental illness and DP/DR specifically is not greater in any skin color. I see no productive reason to keep this thread going. The conversation was more or less civil but I sense it could easily descend into a storm.

#606016 Marijuana Use With DpDr

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 07 September 2019 - 10:13 AM

Weed makes my symptoms 100x worse. And for many others it makes it many times worse. You're best to steer clear of smoking marijuana ever again.

#604690 Most bizarre, crippling thought I've had yet...

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 12 August 2019 - 11:27 PM

I definitely want to try and get into meditation, any tips on where to start?


I'm going to do my best to appreciate the little things. It seems like DPDR attempts to define and describe reality before you even experience reality, and it feels like a constant struggle to reintroduce the logic and reasoning over and over again. But it seems to get just a little bit better every day


So the first thing I want to say is that meditation in general is for your mind/spirit as working out at a gym is for the body. There are very various meditation techniques out there. I'd say the best one to begin with is simply watching your lungs breathe. Don't even worry about posture while meditating, you can do it sitting in a chair, traditional folding of legs, you can even do it laying down or whatever else.

It doesn't have to be for a long duration of time. 15 minutes one or two times per day is a great pace to start. If you feel like sitting an extra 5-10 minutes then feel free. Don't place too many rules on your method.

You'll likely find it difficult to continue holding your focus on your breathing. Don't be hard on yourself, just bring your attention back to your breath. This, as I said in the simile, will increase your ability to concentrate, building your mental faculties. 


This method will also probably put you into a more relaxed state of mind. And then there is "mindfulness", which is basically meditating while doing daily activities, at work for example. Just realize randomly that you can take a moment and just notice your breathing. It's a good stress relief tool to have as well. 


On a side note: Music can be a great way to help you get more into the meditative zone. I don't recommend the "guided meditations" on youtube. But there are some great tracks out there, such as ambient videos. Myself, I prefer more Nordic inspired ambience, or there's a Native American Flute album I sometimes play on Spotify.

#604670 Most bizarre, crippling thought I've had yet...

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 11 August 2019 - 10:26 AM

Thank you for your response. I'm upset that I ran into that because I feel like it upended my recovery and made things feel even more meaningless. Is there anything that has helped you manage your symptoms? 


Huge one is meditation. Other than that I focus on enjoying the simple things in life. A cup of coffee/tea. A simple conversation with a close friend or family. A nostalgic song. Things like that get me by.

#604246 Anxiety, DPDR, Existential thoughts.

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 31 July 2019 - 12:46 PM

You will make it again! Meditation has been my number one coping and recovering skill as well. I believe in the power of each person. This may be DP "Self" Help. But what we do here is help each other along the way. Community is very important and being alone with this is absolute hell. You are strong and we've got your back. Again, welcome smile.png

#604236 Anxiety, DPDR, Existential thoughts.

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 31 July 2019 - 11:01 AM

Welcome to the forum Arc,


Can I ask how you made it out those 4 times? And what is holding you in the DP zone this time around? Myself I've done nothing else but try to think my way out. It's been 16 years now this month of July. I haven't had any breaks from it, 24/7. On the bright side, I am starting to recover, actually consider myself 95%, but there's still that little bit. What I really think is happening is that I've grown stronger than the symptoms (most of them). I work, socialize, do all the things a person without dp might do. Except I'm older now so my priorities have shifted. Being an adult often means you have your shit together but there's still a pile of shit to get in order.

#602888 Why meditation should be taught in school

Posted by ThoughtOnFire on 23 June 2019 - 08:17 PM

u will not find out, go ahead and try. its like trying to hack into ur immune system... u really want to do that? or why not just let it work like it does.