My view of things becomes stripped down to nothing but "animals, objects, plants". I experience ego death, my brain loses the concept of "I", everything becomes dreamlike and I feel like I'm tipping over the edge of reality. I become a machine, I talk to other machines. I become hyper-aware of everything, yet nothing is truly real. It's scary. It's fucked up. There's no sadness, there's no anxious feelings. There's just me, a semi-conscious being in some flesh and I can't even figure out whether I'm controlling it.
You should stay on this site and browse the forums, best of luck to you.
This is word for word what I experience. I wasn't sure if it was depersonalization because I don't feel very dissociated, it's more like hyperawareness of what everything really is. It's absolutely fucking terrifying. I can't believe there's a whole community for this phenomenon. Thank you everyone.
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