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#595864 new here and not feeling anything...

Posted by Laurany152 on 19 January 2019 - 09:45 PM

Me too ali3n, I'm very thankful to have him. Oh and I was able to get an appointment with my new doctor next week instead of waiting for Feb 28th. I'm hoping they will be able to help me. :) 

#595706 Having trouble relating my symptoms to other people's

Posted by Laurany152 on 16 January 2019 - 06:20 PM

Agreed.  I over think EVERYTHING and get obsessive over the smallest of things. Its definately a strange life we live isn't it?

#595686 Having trouble relating my symptoms to other people's

Posted by Laurany152 on 16 January 2019 - 11:21 AM

My psychologist kept saying it must be trauma as well along with my pdoc. I know it's not. The techniques she used didn't help one bit. Dp can be the result of many psychological illnesses. Drug use and head injury can trigger it too


The only thing I can think of was a fever I had right before the DP/DR started. It was in January around my 13th birthday and because of a blizzard and large snow fall my mom and dad wasn't able to get me to a hospital. Mom always believed that was the cause of how I was feeling. I'm not sure if it was the fever or if it was just coincidence.

#595552 i swear i'm going to die

Posted by Laurany152 on 13 January 2019 - 10:39 PM

The anxiety makes you feel like you are going to die but you won't. I understand what you are feeling as most of us here I'm guessing. I've been there rolling around in my driveway like a crazy woman cause I thought I was dying and something was coming to get me. Its anxiety. Its important to try and get the anxiety under control. anxiety (at least for me) makes DR/DP so much worse which makes anxiety climb higher. Its a cycle. Hope you feel better soon.

#595496 new here and not feeling anything...

Posted by Laurany152 on 12 January 2019 - 08:52 PM

i cant focus on reading either, and i hadnt thought it was because of dp...

have you seen a psychiatrist or a psychologist?
i know it is hard to find someone who has heard of dpdr, it took me a while but i have finally found a dr. who has a book where they mention dp (but still, apart from some symptoms, they know nothing else, but its something)


I have an appointment with a new Psychiatrist in Feb. The Dr. I have now is a Psychologist and an older gentleman and to be honest his wife/secretary causes my anxiety to be worse. plus he doesn't know anything about DP/DR.  I tried to stay with him as I've been going to him now for several years but he isn't helping me and I feel like things are just getting worse. My husband suggested I change doctors and he helped me find someone else. He said we will just keep looking until we find someone or something that works for me. I wish I had his strength and optimism. I don't know what I would do without him. He has stuck with me through thick and thin. 

#595448 How did you get DP/DR?

Posted by Laurany152 on 11 January 2019 - 11:47 PM

I first started having DP/DR episodes when I was 13 years old. I was bullied, intorverted and shy and had low self esteem. I also had some strange thoughts about eating and depression as well as anxiety. then one day in january right after my 13th birthday I got sick. I was running a high fever. I remember we had a large snow and my mom and dad wasn't able to get me to a doctor and an ambulance wasn't able to come get me cause I lived in eastern Kentucky and in the country so the roads wasn't great to begin with. So basically mom did what she could to keep the fever down. Then one day I woke up and I felt stuffed. like my body was dead. People's faces were smudged and I felt like the world was a dream. I begged my mom and dad to help me but nobody knew what was wrong. they took me to several doctors but nobody knew what was wrong with me. Finally, a doctor put me in the hospital and for a month they tested me and tried several medications. They put me on Tegretol sent me home with a diagnosis of epilepsy and I proceeded to try and deal. I had a very hard teenage years. I married when I was 18 and left home. My symptoms got better after I had my first baby and for years I was symptom free. I don't think I had epilepsy to begin with. the neurologist I saw a couple of years ago when my "symptoms" returned said I was misdiagnosed and I did not have epilepsy. I seeked help with psychologists and did some research on my own and that is how I figured out I had DP/DRD. I"m still floundering. I am changing mental health professionals as the one I have has no idea what he is doing and cannot help me. I don't feel any hope that things will change for me. It feels like I am just going deeper down the rabbit hole with each passing day and I think that eventually I'll disappear. That makes my anxiety worse. I don't think I will ever see the real world again. my appointment with my new doctor is next month. time will tell.