After EMDR there was lots of crying, irritability, and anger. It's strange how much emotion was felt in the weeks after just one session (especially after not feeling any for three years). I still had blank mind, but my consciousness felt connected with my body, and eventually (after months) thoughts and internal dialogue returned. My mind's eye is still foggy at times, and I do not know the cause of that.
I still had intense panic attacks after this (and still do in some situations), and some made me feel DP/DR. It never sticks around longer than a day or two. In the time since then, I've used self-help methods daily to keep physical and mental stress low (yoga, TRE, mindfulness). Mindfulness has made life more tolerable in general, because it's mere observation without judgement. It helps to see things more clearly (with senses and mind). At first it was difficult for me, because I've always been one to distract myself with video games or music. For me, this was essentially an addiction to avoid facing the issues at hand.
I still don't know for sure if it was the first panic attack that caused me to dissociate 6 months later. This was the most intense attack that also caused an out of body experience. The only other time I've felt this was while dissociated.
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