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Stockholm syndrome

08 January 2014 - 12:58 AM

From wikipedia:


Stockholm syndrome, or capture–bonding, is a psychological phenomenon in which hostages express empathy and sympathy and have positive feelings toward their captors, sometimes to the point of defending them. These feelings are generally considered irrational in light of the danger or risk endured by the victims, who essentially mistake a lack of abuse from their captors for an act of kindness....


Stockholm syndrome can be seen as a form of traumatic bonding, which does not necessarily require a hostage scenario, but which describes “strong emotional ties that develop between two persons where one person intermittently harasses, beats, threatens, abuses, or intimidates the other.”


Have you ever bonded with someone who bullied you?


Maybe as a child did you become a "friend" with a bully and try to diffuse hostile situations with him/her? Were your parents emotionally manipulative, malicious and controlling? Were you ever in an abusive relationship?


What happened? How did you handle these situations, and what/how do you feel about them now?

My mother isn't going to control my life anymore

06 January 2014 - 05:28 PM

No more guilt. No more commands. Wanna argue? Of course you do. You're miserable. Well, I'm not.


No more waiting for help - I'm going to get it myself. No more zombified states of consciousness brought on by drug or environment.


Yes please to sane medication policies. Yes to contentment. Yes to a healthy mind/body. Yes to balance. Yes to learning the art of how to form and keep healthy relationships. Yes to curiosity.


No bipolar symptoms destroying my life. I will ALWAYS rebuild...and I'll have help along the way.


I've learned to sabotage any relationship I've had....I've been so alone for so long. I've been afraid to feel and trust my intuition. Not anymore.


I will try my best to unlearn what has been drilled into my head for 23 years. I don't need to move on. I could stay a slave and puppet. I don't want to.


No more letting my therapist collude with her without me to intimidate and control my emotions and life  (he's being investigated ;) - See ya around Julio!).

I spoke to a mental health service provider over the phone and she was appalled by what she heard. She was a total sweetheart, too. It's nice when you say something and someone else thoughtfully listens and responds genuinely from the heart! Isn't that neat?


No more bullies in control of my psyche - fuck that. No more major stress from bullying in therapeutic settings or otherwise driving me to wander the streets in a psychotic haze. No more letting myself getting sucked into it anymore. No more being a bully myself....and if I get carried away you're damned right I'll feel gutted if I hurt someone. I'm a fucking human being. It's stupid to be an asshole and you feel like shit.


The cycle WILL end because I will end it.




Her way isn't the right way. She is the agent of her own destruction. My father is the agent of his own damnation. I am the agent of my salvation. There are others out there waiting to meet someone. They'd be happy just to talk a while. Wouldn't that be nice? To bond with another person? Love, reason, and understanding will conquer any little dictator.


If there is a loving god and it is good, then I hope it lets everyone see the error of their ways. I want to see all of mine.


Change happens every single moment. I'm going along with the current.

[TED Talk] Learning from the voices in my head

04 December 2013 - 03:51 PM


This video really resonates with me and my own attempts to find both meaning and reason in recent and past experiences with psychosis and hearing voices.


It's only 6 minutes long and it's a personal story that tells of an alternative way to look at madness (meaningful and sane reactions to insane/painful environments and experiences) in a culture that is saturated with mostly ideas of impersonal biological psychiatry.


I believe medication has it's place, but it's only a tool in a person's journey when suffering from mental distress.

Recovering from psychosis

04 December 2013 - 12:26 AM

I feel exhausted, muddled, and dissociated.


Maybe in the future I can wrap my head around exactly what's happened, but now it's like a puzzle that's slowly coming together. The time-line isn't exactly clear and summoning the ability to tell a point A to B story isn't easy, but I can recall events.


I had withdrawals from heavy marijuana use and lost sleep. I became obsessed. I lost a friend. I walked the streets. I thought I was on a mission. I called the police. I thought I could be Jesus Christ. I thought I was in purgatory. I thought the world was ending. I saw "visions". I tried "saving" a forum filled with trolls and it made me even more mad.


I started believing in God and felt he was communicating with me through the television and magazines. It felt so real and the message of love felt so right...


I thought the people trying to help me were against me. I went to the wasn't a good place. I didn't tell the people around me everything I believed or saw. I was sometimes antagonistic and almost always paranoid. The staff didn't like me and the patients were allowed to be emotionally abusive.


Some symptoms still lingered even until today, but they'll be gone soon.


I want my friend back, and I want myself back...and it'll take time. My future will be filled with perseverance and kindness. I have to move forward, and I will with exuberance, wonder, a level-head, a thirst for learning, and a gratefulness I didn't have before.


For now I'm taking things one day at a time and trying not to over-think. I'll question my recent interpretations of reality, but not forget about love.


It sounds overly-sappy, but when your world is falling apart you realize the importance of certain people and things.

Are you subconsciously trying to manipulate people? [Article]

26 October 2013 - 03:41 AM

I found this article, and in a nutshell it's about how people try to manipulate others in order to not feel pain they think is unbearable. It's written from the perspective of a long time psychotherapist.





Thoughts? Have you ever had an experience where you acted similarly? Do you find yourself acting this way often when confronted with a major issue? If you find yourself uncomfortable to seriously consider this article and those last two questions (without judgment or dismissal) you may be hiding something that you may need to confront....and I think you know that deep down.