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#266365 Right guys question?

Posted by Overloaded on 24 September 2012 - 08:00 PM

I dont really feel I have much short term memory loss but when I think back to things I done earlier in the day it seems so far away and seems like I done it ages ago, anyone else get this?

Yeah I think most of us can relate to that. If the events of your day don't feel real in the first place (even though they are), the memory created in your brain will seem more distant than say if you didn't have DPD. Also when you combine that with a difficulty in keeping track of time, like a lot of DPD sufferers experience, the time the memory took place may also be unclear or aged despite occurring earlier in the day, for example.

#254757 used to

Posted by Overloaded on 09 April 2012 - 02:21 AM

It's a bitch man. I feel bad for you, because I know exactly how you feel.

There were a lot of simple things I took pleasure in which are basically dead to me now. But there are the odd few remaining.

#249783 If it's actually caused by anxiety...

Posted by Overloaded on 08 February 2012 - 01:49 AM

...then why does anti-anxiety meds tend to do nothing at all? Take away the anxiety and the DP/DR should be close to follow, but this is not the case.

#247442 Can barely remember what it was like to feel normal

Posted by Overloaded on 12 January 2012 - 12:45 AM

Yeah I tend to think back and have a tough time remembering it. When I get a good memory I hold on to it. What I liked and remember most about not having this was being able to do nothing and have a smile on my face. Like, when I was normal, I could just wake up happy. I didn't have to be doing anything special. These days it takes effort just to crack a smile no matter what I'm doing.

#246037 It's Changing

Posted by Overloaded on 06 December 2011 - 01:58 AM

I hope you are so happy that you have your emotions back! Please never take them for granted! Nice job with recovery, I'm truly happy for you!

I won't take a thing for granted...ever! I spent most my life in front of a computer or in a dark basement, isolated by choice, indulged in my own hobbies. I wish I could go back in time and kick my butt and tell myself to enjoy the world. There is so much beauty in the world. I didn't truly realize this until DP hit me. It really has been a massive wake up call.

#246001 It's Changing

Posted by Overloaded on 05 December 2011 - 09:54 PM

When DP first hit me 5+ months ago I was a basket case. I was positive my life was over and ready to call it quits. Typical symptoms of course, except the floaters scared me so much. Completely numb emotionally, felt like my arms/limbs weren't mine, problems facing people, no interest in normal activities, hypersensitive vision, tinnitus etc. The heightened pain threshold is kind of neat. The cold weather doesn't bother me as much anymore.

But what DIDN'T change? My appetite! I became less picky but it never changed. I could drive a car like normal. Driving always grounds me. My sleeps got worse, but then got better. I can fall asleep in a few minutes these days.

I've been taking cod liver and vitamins daily since it started. I think they do help. I also went for drives when I felt restless/consumed. Other than that, I've basically been sitting around but diving into religion. More on that later.

Overall It's like my DP is 90% visual/perceptual (rather than say emotional). The thing is, I have emotions now. I laugh at funny things, I get frustrated, I feel happy or sad. I can get lost in a book, or whatever. I was watching Pearl Harbor today and it nearly made me cry...My floaters hardly bother me.

So basically I feel like I'm on the uphill. The best thing I've learned so far is that your mind can only focus on one thing at a time. Unfortunately DP isn't just a thought, but is always more prominent when you sit there thinking about it.

I've also made it a goal, when I come out of this, to help others who suffer from it. This isn't something anyone should have to go through. Never!

My next move is to start working out again. Mostly cardio, since I have less interests in being ripped but more in being just healthy.