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Member Since 12 Jun 2011
Offline Last Active Jun 23 2011 01:07 PM
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#233338 Weed + Panic attack = Derealisastion

Posted by qxc on 12 June 2011 - 04:48 PM

Hello, Guys.
First i wanna say, im from germay, sooo excuse me for my bad language. But i gonna try to write good sence.

First to my Person.
My name is Christian im 19 years old, and im form germany. SUPRISE ! xD

Well, you see - i got a derealisastion after a panic attack on weed.

Story.

It was the 28.March 2011. It was a weekend. I chill with a friend. And he ask, do you want to smoke little bit weed, we can go to a friend. He got this.
It was not my first time, that i smoke. It was hmmm the 10 time or something. Not too much and not too many.

I sad, yes - ok lets go. It was really dark outside, when we went to the house. Ok.
In the house was 3 another friends. We smoke a little bit and watch the movie "Transpotting" everything was fine.

Than a friend say to me, cmon Chris lets go home we have 4 in the morning. I sad; ye ok, im tired to.

We go outside, everything was dark. I cant see my hand, soo dark it was. We walk on the street. And suddenly.
It make click, and i "come" back, it was rly crazy it feels like i was afk in my brain.

And than after this "klick" i become a huge panic attakc. I say to the friend. OMG OMG, i have a hallicunation or something.
He laugh, and said, dont joke with me. But it was not a joke.

We come home, and he say go sleep Chris everything gonne be fine the next day. So i close my eyes and "try" to sleep. But no.
I cant sleep. My adrenalin flushed, and i have rly crazy think in my head. When i close my eyes, i think two orange talk, and they have mexicano head or something weird stuff.

I go to the hospital, and they couldnt help me. They say its okay, go home. Aha rly nice...

I was back form the hospital. My body was sooo empty. I have a hangover. I dont know how i come back. At the end im sleep in my bed.
I woke up, and think "everything - is over" i dont smoke weed anymore. But yee, thats not the end. Now the rly hell coming.

I talk with my parents, on the telefon, i want to go home. I sleep by a friend for a weekend. Ye my dad comes, and bring me home.
I told him the story, and he sad "dont smoke weed, we tell it you, its not good". I said yes, dad now i know it.

After this road. I come home, but than its started agian. I feel the fear in me. But i just say "releax" its the weed in your body, in a week its over !
But it was not over. I got the Derealisastion 24h. First i dont know whats wrong with, me. Than i read derealiastion etc. Ye, that what i have.

The first time it was rly hard, to live with it. When i go outside, everything was different. Nothing like before. I scared a couple times. But nothing was so heavy like the panic attack. The Panic attack, was the first panic attack and the last panic attack in my life.

Anyway, the first time it was rly hard. But than study this stuff. Everything what i read its "fear" etc. So i say, dont have, a fear. Ye its easy to say.


What i did ? I go to the gym, and i have the fear in my body again. I cant go alone outsinde, or go to the gmy.
But now, its different. I can go alone outside without fear, and i can to the gym now. I fight the fear and well i see the dr, its going back.

I hope you like my story, when you have anwser write it. (:

greetz, chris.