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#264736 scary dp moment from watching a film :(

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 09 September 2012 - 04:52 AM

I've been feeling way better but I still get that when I watch movies with a strong meaning behind it or if I think about life's meaning for too long, that's also why I took a break from such movies : <

#264673 Anger problems, can anyone relate?

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 08 September 2012 - 01:38 AM

Hi everyone,
I wanted to know if anxiety and dp have caused you to turn into an angry person? I wasn't an angry person before all this, I was actually really chilled out, hated confrontation, didn't like to cause arguments etc. But now the smallest things just piss me off so much that I get verbally abusive to people, I have the worst road rage going, today I was in a traffic jam and a man came and tapped on my window and said 'move the fuck over' so I got out my car, called him the C word, told him I was going to knock him out if he touches my window again (not that I would have) but I don't understand why I'm so angry? even with my parents it feels like we're constantly arguing, I don't get that heated up with my parents but we do argue a lot and it's depressing. I have never been physically violent to anyone, and it kind of concerns me, is this a normal reaction to anxiety? I'm worried I have something more and my personality is changing or something.

Thank you

Yes, I was thinking of posting something about this actually... I've turned into an angry beast, actually afraid that I might lose my mind someday if someone pisses me off for real :/

#264582 Depersonalization listed on citalopram instructions

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 07 September 2012 - 12:04 PM

People may think its stupid but never ever seen it mentioned and no one i know has a clue to what it is. The psychiatrist even freaked out when i said it feels like im in a dream. But some people will call me a fucking idiot for posting this...

Well I really think it is interesting, just like you say no one recognizes the word "Depersonalization" so it would be helpful for me having some medication with it written there so that I could put it in front of their faces

#264281 Feeling 90% better

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 03 September 2012 - 11:09 PM

Hey guys,

I haven't been around lately and I'm thankful to say it's because I've been doing so much better the last month. The new term started two weeks ago and I've been busy with classes, but beyond that I've just stopped caring about my DP and as a result I've almost completely recovered. Every now and then I think about it, but it no longer has serious control over me. I think about other things and enjoy life. I've got too much to do to be caught up in this bullshit, and I'm not going to let it control my life anymore.

It doesn't matter if life doesn't make sense or things appear unreal sometimes. This is the reality that I have to deal with, and I can't go through life worried about every little thing my mind conjures up to throw me off. Whenever I experience the feelings, I ponder them for a second, but then I realize that's basically equivalent to checking in on myself like I used to -- and if you ask yourself whether or not you're normal, the answer will always be no. So I stop worrying about it and before you know it I'm back to doing my thing and I'm not even thinking about DP.

I don't have a silver bullet for curing this thing. It all affects us differently and no one method will cure it for everyone. Just hang in there, keep a positive outlook, and find what works for you. Could I fall back into it? Yeah, possibly, but worrying about it will only ensure it comes back. Stop giving a shit. It might not cure you, but you'll go a lot further than if you sit around worrying your head off.

Anyway, I've got a paper to write. I'll see you guys back in reality.

- Zach

Glad you're doing better buddy! I've been feeling better for 2 months now, few bad days just like everyone but still nothing seems to get me down like before, stronger than ever and trying to improve!

#263464 fuck yes.

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 23 August 2012 - 02:25 PM

Positive attitude, I like that, keep on going!

#263371 cure to depersonalization in 10 seconds. not lying

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 22 August 2012 - 06:31 AM

A cure for you would be disconnecting your router cable for life

#263333 Small tip concerning coffee consumption

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 21 August 2012 - 05:27 PM

Okay so if you're an anxious person, whether you're feeling bad, on the way to recover or whatever, try to stay away from coffee really.

I'm saying this because I'm on a healthy diet / daily exercise / supplements for 1 month and 10 days now, I've been feeling pretty decent with a few exceptions, which is when I skip exercise mostly, but today I'm freaking out a bit because I had some coffee, I used to hear some friends saying they couldn't drink coffee as they would instantly feel bad and anxious, I must admit I didn't believe it, until now :sad2: !

#263325 Will a diazapam 2mg do me any damage?

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 21 August 2012 - 03:20 PM

I have 6 left kept them for emergencies. I might take one tonight. How long do the effects last and will it do any damage. Im having heart palps and im really worried. :sad2:

Diazepam 2mg is a pretty small dose, still you shouldn't take them "until you feel better" , try one and see if you notice anything, if you don't and if you still feel like you need help with your anxiety, see a doctor, hope you get better buddy :)

#263158 randomness.

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 19 August 2012 - 05:39 PM

i feel like im better somedays and somedays feel completely out of it. like i was doing good for a little bit then had some bad days, and then some worse days but now there just "whatever days" is what i call them.
but weirdly i never thought i would ever say this, but i really dont care. like, at all. i've just lost so much interest in dp/dr. sure im come on this website still, but just reading new post's or out of boredom. when im at work i dont think about dp/dr really at all. yesterday i went hours without it even crossing my mind. im coming up on a full 4 months i have had this. i thought it would take much longer for me to not ever care about this anymore. i sometimes even think, i dont care if i have this forever. I go out with friends almost every night, drink a little here and there but not much. sometimes though i feel like i have to get out, just so i wont let this creep up into my mind for hours, ya know? i dont know. i always ramble on these damn things. lol
but has anyone else felt like this, good days to bad days to worse days to just not even caring anymore? could this be recovery?
i can honestly say i am no longer afraid of this, at all. and that is awesome to me. anyways. uhm... feedback please?

I kinda feel the same, in a way... I say in a way because once in a while I still think that it'll be awesome when one day I get rid of this, I have considered the possibility of having it forever, yet I'd rather get back to the "old me" obviously. I try to mantain a positive thinking towards everything these days, some are slightly worse than others, yet the positive thinking beats the symptoms and they are barely noticeable, still there though.

Deep inside I guess that's just how I think, that these are "whatever" days, that I just don't care about this yet I try not to follow that path because one day I'd really enjoy to see life as I used to :)

Good luck! ^^

#263005 Just a few questions. I'd love your replies!

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 17 August 2012 - 09:42 AM

1. My DP/DR is pretty much 24/7 , probably gets easier to deal with when I have a distraction, still there's "something" that reminds me all the time that it is there.

2. Basically the same question as the first one, so yeah 24/7.

3. I wouldn't know how to classify the things I've seen to be honest, not sure whether they are hallucinations or illusions, which I guess are different. I've seen shadows, I've seen things move, things that used to scare the crap out of me when I actually cared about being sane, now after 3 years I know I'm not insane I just lost a few screws from the trauma and anxiety.

4. I don't. I quit school 3 years ago because of DPD and I can't find a job, I'm simply scared of it.
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#262966 Hangover from hell!!

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 16 August 2012 - 04:43 PM

Does anyone notice how a hangover can make your dp/dr go through the roof and makes you want to crawl in a fetal position on the floor wishing it would end !! I never really had hangovers before but i notice a big difference and is sucks :sad2:

YES, while drunk I barely notice DPD but when I'm hungover, jeeeez I just want it to go away fast because it intensifies DPD symptoms a LOT!

#262776 DP and employment?

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 13 August 2012 - 05:30 PM

it's just one of those things where we'll constantly be on the road to recovery. you have to push yourself. it's going to take some time but we can't sit around forever (as much as I would love to) that's no way to live our lives. we gotta get off our bum humps eventually and do something. you can do it!

True story :P I guess I can do it, and so can everyone :D

#262727 I finally 'recognised' someone!

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 13 August 2012 - 06:42 AM

Well just like the title says, I finally managed to 'recognise' someone I hadn't seen in a long time, brought up a lot of memories and that person was the first in 3 years to make me smile/laugh for REAL, I usually meet up with people and I use a fake smile, a fake laughter, basically I'm never there despite the fact that I've been feeling a lot better this last month, this was just something different...

If you all can relate to the lack of connection to people, try and meet up with people that you haven't seen in years, I've tried it lotsa times and it never worked out, no one could trigger a true smile/laugh on me, this person could!

I insist that you try this, it's the most amazing feeling ever if you've been under DPD curse for years, feeling connected to someone is quite an achievment

#262510 Daily inspiration for DP sufferers

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 10 August 2012 - 02:24 AM

Agreed 100% really... It's a huge struggle and it gets even bigger when you see so much negativeness around the forum, which I have tried to change but I'm not capable of such a thing, even I still have my bad moments still so some daily inspiration wouldn't be bad at all, subscribed :)

#262464 Something I've realized ...

Posted by PositiveThinking! on 09 August 2012 - 11:38 AM

A lot of the people on this forum are adamant about not getting better. When I try to post something positive people mock and ridicule. I think some people honestly don't want to get better because this "incurable disease" gives them something to distract them from their unsatisfactory lives. For all the people who truly want to get better send me a message. I'll leave you with this quote "People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it."

You got that absolutely right buddy, sadly... Some people find comfort in this living hell, as they are able to avoid everything else this way, I've been feeling better for ages but tips are always welcome because I'm not recovered 100% just yet :)