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#607616 My ULTIMATE cure to dp/dr

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 10 October 2019 - 11:06 PM

Obviously physical exercise alone helped the person who started the thread, and apparently a few others, unless they are lying. I believe them. It really doesn't surprise me at all that a person could rebound from DP totally just from exercise alone. Some people recover over time, naturally. Some people claim dieting and exercise helped them recover from DP. Some people require more time then others and/or counseling. Some people recover just by going on with their daily life normally. Some people claim to have DP syndrome for life, but that is more rare in my opinion. 


One thing is for sure, you have to be careful claiming what helped you recover from DP as a cure. For some reason people get very upset about that. It is one remedy to help treat DP. I dont see the harm in making that claim. There is no harm, as long as people use sensible discretion. Obviously, you don;t want run so much to make your feet fall off. It's healthy to exercise, sensibly. It feels good to exercise. Personally, I am most at peace when Im jogging. Nothing bothers me when Im jogging.

#606632 Does really distracting you from the feelings/thougts from DP cure it?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 20 September 2019 - 11:54 AM

I purposefully intended to stir up a small fuss. Because I read some of these things people say, as mentioned in this thread as only one example, and I strongly disagree with what they are saying and how they say it and I wanted to make a point. You can remove me if youd like but what Im saying is true. It sounds harsh but its really not. And I want anyone who is like me and who has been traumatized with 24/7 DP for years to know that it does go away and there are many remedies to help you along.


It should be the first thing people see when they visit the forum. Got DP? Don't worry, it goes away. Here's what you can do to help. Here's some stories from people who have recovered. Here's some advice. Here's some video testimonials of people who have recovered. 


Instead I see people telling other people, there are no known cures and people only find ways to cope. I see people saying things like that a lot. I see people arguing with other people who are being optimistic about the experience and who are trying to encourage people to improve their self. I see too often people being pessimistic and rude towards people giving advice. 


Yes, Yuri is correct in his comment. It took me a long time to build up the courage to leave the DP and to live and move forward as I was with all of the fog, confusion, no sense of self, no identity, fear, crippling anxiety, and depersonalization. I stayed hidden away for years. I dropped out of college, I avoided having a job, and I stayed to myself as much as possible out of fear and as many people do. I could just barely speak but totally could not hold on a conversation with anyone not even my father. I was out of it. My father died and I became homeless for years. I got no pitty or relief from no one and I had to work on myself to build up courage, strength, and perspective as would anyone with or without DP. It was hard. People would be mean. I could barely even speak. It was very humiliating to be such a mess. But I take it in, accept it, work harder, and keep working on myself to improve myself and my ability to navigate through life peacefully and confidently.


Honestly, I cant see any better way for someone to transcend the DP experience, or move beyond it, except to accept it, move on, and work on your self. 


If I had known that earlier during depersonalization I would have leaped. I would have at least tried to develop the courage to drop it and approach life without all of the identity, negative believes, behaviors, and baggage that comes along with the DP experience. I would have got a job or gone to college or gone on an adventure sooner. I wouldn't have given so much power to the idea that I was "sick". Like I said, I would have went on with my life as one would without the DP because ultimately, thats what one has to do anyways, at any point, if they wish to leave the DP. 


And it gets easier. Thats why the advice is there to meditate, exercise, practice healthy eating and living. Because these things make you healthier and stronger and thus easier for you to navigate in your self and in the world as you would without DP. If your intention is true and you are serious about leaving DP it gets easier and easier and one day you will notice DP isnt even there and you no longer even give it any thought. Thats how it happens and not just for me but for everyone who goes through it. They just go on living and it goes away. 


And thats exactly what I think people should know. It goes away. 


The young gentleman earlier in the thread mentioned that he was suffering with DP for 10 years but at that moment wasn't troubled with DP. That lets me know that he needs to move on then. There are people who are traumatized 24/7 with this and who feel doomed that they have a chronic crippling mental illeness which is not the case. But why was the young gentleman here? To socialize? To argue that DP is unknown? To argue there isnt a remedy? To give people support? To reminisce?


I try to encourage people to go on with their life as they would without the DP and to improve their physical and mental health as a remedy to make their self stronger and healthier. It goes away. And they can totally go on to live healthy, happy, and fulfilling lives. But I say this and people want to argue that what im saying is wrong and that I dont know what Im talking about. Because its too hard to just go on living without DP. It is hard. But its not too hard. It goes away.  

#606568 Does really distracting you from the feelings/thougts from DP cure it?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 19 September 2019 - 01:59 PM

Its really unlike me to call people out but I have to. I go here occasionally just to check things out. I would like to make treatment and understanding of DP/DR more clear to people. 


Eddy1886, doesn't fully understand what hes talking about when he says there is no cure. There totally is. DP/DR is totally manageable and treatable. 


Also, the things said on this thread by Eddy1886 are very pessimistic, unhelpful, non beneficial, and not true. 


I would encourage others to seek other sources for solutions rather then listing to Eddy1886. 


Go to youtube and look up videos of people recovered from DP/DR. Its actually very possible.


People please, if you are having a hard time in your life and with your self dont try to give people false ideas that they are doomed just because you your self are having a hard time. 

#606562 Recovery; The unromantic version.

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 19 September 2019 - 01:25 PM

This is absolutely true. That is the case for DP/DR. I really wish it would become more widely known and accepted that recovery for DP/DR is as simple as that.


You simply go on living as you would if you were normal. Because in truth, you are normal.


You can relax knowing that you don't have a serious mental disorder. It really does go away. The symptoms of DP, in my opinion, are just symptoms of too much stress, anxiety, and/or depression.


When you learn to relax and settle into your self the cloudiness and all the symptoms that are DP/DR simply go away.


I've dealt with it so much and seen it in many different people that I am 100% certain of it. 


The way to treat DP/DR is to treat stress. Lifestyle changes most likely are required. 


Learn meditation. Its a science. It really works to relieve tension, stress, and even depression. Its scientifically proven to work.

Heres a link for different types of meditation. Google each type for instructions. Do one daily for 20 minutes or so.



Yoga is good for body -mind health and for developing strength and balance. It works. Feels great to be able to move around well.


Aromatherapy works for mental health and in creating a lovely environment to live in, which in turn is theraupeutic. 




Exercising. Jogging. Jump roping. Personally, if i feel down I can go for a jog for a few miles and it totally makes me feel better. 


Strength training.


I seriously recommend developing an exercise routine and getting fit and in good shape to help remedy your DP/DR and your fears/anxiety.


Nutrition is super important for good health. Learning how to eat properly. Most peoples depression and anxiety can be treated with proper nutrition and exercise alone. Its a science. 


Take care of your body and mind, make it healthy and happy and you will reap the benefits. 


Self improvement, lifestyle changes, and all of the above are great remedies to treat DP/DR. 


Another piece of advice is to learn a new hobby. Join a group with other people learning dancing, sewing, hiking, martial arts or anything can be very beneficial for your mental health. I recommend a martial art like boxing, kick boxing, jiu jitsu, etc..


Mostly, just go live is the ultimate remedy for DP/DR. Face your fears. Learn something new. Do something new. Go on living and you grow out of it. 

#605450 Keep feeling i fucked up my head and life

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 26 August 2019 - 08:44 PM


I believe it works like this.

You don't ever 'recover', at least in the sense that things go back to 'normal' or how things 'used to be'.

You go on growing and changing. Mostly, you have to develop and nurture your self. You strengthen your weaknesses. You work from where you are and you try your hardest and things get easier for you. You make your life more enjoyable. You learn how to live.

If you are 'dysfunctional', you can work on gradually developing new skills and thus become more 'functional'. You gotta work at it tho. Eventually you become stronger. You will, if you work at it. If you want to be healthy mentally and physically you can but you have to work at it. You can see noticeable effects after only a few weeks of proper nurturing.

I too used to do meds but I realized that if I ever wanted to be strong and healthy I will have to face my condition and face life as it is on my own. So I worked at it. I practiced. Over time I gradually came off the meds. It was very hard. Withdrawals can be very terrible, but they go away. Eventually, I went on with my life without any meds. It was hard. I was 'dysfunctional'. People can see I was weird. People could see I was dysfunctional. People would pick on me and be mean and take advantage. But I didn't care. I was determined more then anything to be strong. Eventually I become strong.

I would take jobs like landscaping and tree trimming, jobs that were outdoors because it was more suitable for the type of condition I was in. Other men would pick fights with me. I learned how to fight. I'm strong.

You're the same way. You're a human being. If we're talking depersonalization, anxiety, depression then I understand and I know the same rules apply to you. You have to work at it. You have to develop strength. You don't be lazy. You be active. You find solutions. You learn how you can make your self healthier and stronger mentally and physically. You face your fears. You strengthen your weaknesses.

I took a public speaking class when I was 28. I was a mess. I felt that everyone would see the years of trauma and years of being a fucking freak. I did it anyways. I did it four times. The first time i was the worst of all the students, I could hardly speak. The fourth speech, I was cracking jokes. Fuck it. And I'll do it again and again and again. My point is, you get better at it. Even if you think you're dysfunctional, you do it anyways until you become functional.

You grow. You learn. You live.

#364228 Anyone recovered from DP with therapy?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 20 January 2016 - 03:56 PM

dp? for at least a solid 3 years, and then the following two years was on and off. began when my father passed away and i was smoking weed. lost myself. got confused and scared and then the feelings of dp took over. 


i believe therapy can be very good for this especially if you were with a good therapist. Ive had therapists, counselors, and psychiatrist who were of absolutely no help. non compassionate, non understanding. and they them selves living in their own dream. i suspect they followed college out of high school and got a job without any real experience. 

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#364217 Anyone recovered from DP with therapy?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 20 January 2016 - 11:17 AM

yea therapy is good. I remember i was practically bed bound, couldn't really leave the house. my therapist helped me a lot in the start. i think how i really got through it was from living. I moved a lot, which to me was a big adventure, even though i was having major difficulties. i found inspiration and a kind of sense of connection with the earth that kind of inspired me to get out of it, to go out and live. even if its hard. it gets easier, truly. make the best of it. spent a lot of time out doors. camping, hiking. bought a motorcycle, traveled across the country. got jobs here and there to save money, then i would quit the job. now i am very health conscious, without really trying. i eat good food. regular exercise. meditation. try not to worry or stress over anything.


first it was, getting out, doing things, living. then it turned into taking extra good care of my self. like someone would care for a plant, give it good water, good nutrients. not too much. not too little. plenty of sun light, but don't burn it. meditation or self inquiry. and then the plant becomes strong and healthy inside and out.. anything to serve you in a positive way is beneficial.. eating properly, stretching, exercising, walks in nature, mediatation. eventually i became like a dr almost. treating myself. but thats a different subject.

#364158 Anyone recovered from DP with therapy?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 19 January 2016 - 06:00 PM

Completely recovered. I'm on here because I find the subject interesting. Seems there is a lot unknown of Depersonalization and healing.

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#363889 Does DP ever go away?

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 15 January 2016 - 03:30 PM

Yes dp does go away, forever. It happens in different degrees for different people. Using myself as an example. Dp and 'all of that' began after smoking weed. I suffered hard with this dp for at least a solid 3 years, 24/7. The next 2 to 3 years, it would fluctuate. After a while the dp would fluctuate on such small levels that it wasn't so hard to deal with. Eventually, it went away completely. If I smoke weed now it will not cause dp. I have tried it several times, nothing happens. Not that I enjoy smoking weed. It really does nothing for me. In fact, I feel best sober. 


When the dp began to go away, the day to day state i was in was of fluctuating degrees of dp. Meaning, the level of dp could be measured on a scale from 1 to 10 and would fluctuate day to day. Some days it would not be there at all. If during this time i would smoke weed, feelings of dp would become strong. But always, fear would occur first. After the influence from the weed would begin to go away, the state of 'dp' would return into a state of 'going away'. It's easy to know when it is 'going away' because some days you will feel better and some you will feel worse. This should be seen as evidence that it is in fact 'going away'.


I should note too that during this whole time of 'dp' I came to understand that the body, in connection with consciousness, already knows how to heal and is inclined to do so. For example, you may go to bed feeling very bad but when you wake up in the morning you feel better. It seems to me that the feelings of 'dp' are non substantial. Meaning, the whole thing of 'dp' doesn't truly have anything existential that gives it life or strength. And so, given the right attention, understanding, and care,  'Depersonalization Disorder' is naturally inclined to go away. And like a bad cold, one day it is gone.



#363878 Will this ever go away permanently and not return

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 15 January 2016 - 01:02 PM

Yes dp does go away forever. In different degrees for different people. Using myself as an example. Dp and all of that began after smoking weed. I suffered hard with this dp for at least a solid 3 years 24/7. The next 2 to 3 years it would fluctuate. After a while the dp would fluctuate on a small level where it wasnt very hard to deal with. Eventually it went away totally. If I smoke weed now it will not cause dp, at all. But for some one else it may cause a little dp. I have tried it, nothing. I've been without any kind of dp for a while now. I still don't like weed, I feel better without it or any drug. they don't do anything for me. except honestly, psilosybin.


When the dp began to go away, the day to day state i was in was of fluctuating degrees of dp, Meaning, the level of dp could be measured on a scale from 1 to 10 and fluctuating day to day. i smoked weed and the dp would become strong. But after the influence from the weed began to go away. the state of 'dp' went back to its state of 'going away'. its easy to know when it is 'going away'.


I'll go ahead and note too that during this whole time of 'dp' I came to understand that the body, in connection with consciousness, already knows how to heal and is inclined to do so. For example, you may go to bed feeling very bad but when you wake up in the morning you feel better.. I say that because it seems to me that the feelings of 'dp' become non substantial. Meaning, given the right attention, understanding, and care, they will naturally fade away.

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#363669 Nature

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 10 January 2016 - 12:35 PM

#332141 completely and permanently recovered after ten long years

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 07 May 2014 - 07:17 PM

nice post. i believe you are totally right. i dont have anymore dp either !! at all !

#332139 No More DP!

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 07 May 2014 - 06:47 PM

Seriously, no more dp. No, REALly. Time to move on. Yeap, you sure can

#332137 No More DP!

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 07 May 2014 - 06:39 PM



#332130 DP is ego death

Posted by fieldsmatt31 on 07 May 2014 - 05:27 PM

i used to have this "dp" stuff. the main thing that i remember is that i didn't know who i was and i was traumatized with fear by this question, who am i?


trying to be somebody. trying to act like somebody. trying to talk like somebody. so very stressful to worry about being a person !!


the feelings of dp went away gradually as i learned and practiced meditation, when i could relax, as i became healthy.


being comfortable, eating healthy, meditation, meditation, and mediation were for me very important in dispelling this terrible confusion and the feelings of dp accosiated with it.


the feeling of dp went away gradually and sometimes instantly. pretty much the way clouds behave in the sky. for a while it was back and forth. oh i feel depersonalized today. oh today i don't. but y is that?


now there is absolutely no feelings of dp. that seems forever ago. 


but i still don't know who i am, because im not a person at all. that is a misunderstanding, kinda like a fantasy or a dillusion. more like a fantasy that you sincerilly believe in and are attached to.


don't be a concept of your self. find out, existentially, with total honesty what it is that you are. hence, meditation. you will find there is nothing you can identify with, except nothing itself.