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#332396 Feeling Better, But Not.

Posted by jen1017 on 10 May 2014 - 03:19 AM

Surprisingly the last few days my anxiety has felt better and I even went outside of my apartment yesterday and didn't feel as though I was detached or anxious.

I still keep worrying about my thoughts. It's like I don't remember what it feels like to have normal thoughts. Not thoughts that aren't worry or ruminating. I'm so afraid that I'm going to lose myself if I get better. Like if I get better I won't have any thoughts. Does that even make sense?

Or more so that I'll be better but like not conscious. Because I can't imagine not having these obsessive thoughts.

#331074 Could I be depressed too?

Posted by jen1017 on 29 April 2014 - 11:41 PM

I know existential thinking is often a symptom of DP, but why do I feel so meaningless?

These are some of my thoughts:
"What's the point of doing anything if we just die!"
I don't seem to care or be excited about anything anymore.
I feel like I have no goal to try to strive for. Like I just don't have a reason to have goals.
I don't look forward to things.

I think the most upsetting thing is that I don't understand where these thoughts come from. Like how can someone think like this? Can I even reverse these feeling to get back to feeling interested in life again??

#330477 Does DP effect motivation anyone?

Posted by jen1017 on 24 April 2014 - 10:22 PM

I can attest to having very little motivation at times. I get the "what's the point" feeling a lot. I find trying to set little goals helps. Even if you feel like not doing anything, just try.

#324020 Hyper aware?

Posted by jen1017 on 05 March 2014 - 12:01 PM

Do you guys/gals ever feel hyper aware of everything?

It's strange. It's like you almost feel normal, but not because you're just so aware of everything. It's kind of hard to explain.

#322880 Fluctuating DP

Posted by jen1017 on 22 February 2014 - 10:57 PM

Does anyone else find that their symptoms fluctuate? I can feel really quite good for a few days and then I can get really DPd again

I was feeling pretty good this week and when I woke up this morning I felt really shitty.

My head is very fogged and I can't think straight and I just feel really out of it.

#321155 Went out of my apartment today.

Posted by jen1017 on 07 February 2014 - 05:27 PM

I'm happy to say I was able to go out of my apartment today without having a panic attack.

I just tried my best to ignore the DP and thought of positive things.

#320818 Waking Up

Posted by jen1017 on 05 February 2014 - 11:11 AM

Waking up in the morning is the worst part for me right now.

It just feels so sudden that I wake up and it feels so unreal.

It's like I'm waking up from a REALLY long sleep, but really it isn't.

#320468 Can't get myself to leave my apartment!

Posted by jen1017 on 02 February 2014 - 10:56 PM

I am feeling better than I did a few weeks ago, but even thinking about leaving my apartment makes me anxious.

I want to go out, but I can't.

I keep thinking I'm never going to get better. Like I'm going to be stuck like this. Never happy again. It's frustrating and depressing.