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egodeath

Member Since 26 Oct 2008
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#179934 Quick Question

Posted by egodeath on 10 January 2010 - 09:49 PM

Not to be a douche, but there's a major event pretty much every day. Planes crash, people are elected president, people are killed, ufos are sighted and things explode. Focusing on the link between your dissociative symptoms and major world events is a bad idea because it's not there. Trying to prove to yourself that your DP/DR is some kind of spidey sense will only make you go nuts. Generally speaking, if an idea sounds crazy, that's probably because it is.


#165997 Do you believe DP causes existential thoughts?

Posted by egodeath on 24 June 2009 - 01:17 PM

I GENUENLY think DP causes the thoughts because normal people dont think about bullcrap like that.


Everyone thinks of bullcrap like that. I doubt most of the great postmodern thinkers suffered DP, but they sure as hell had interesting existential beliefs.


#165953 Do you believe DP causes existential thoughts?

Posted by egodeath on 24 June 2009 - 01:11 AM

DR more than DP, but yes for both. Losing touch with reality or the ego is bound to make one question existence more than the average person because they have more at stake.


#148529 Could it be something else?

Posted by egodeath on 20 January 2009 - 12:01 PM

That would be typical depersonalization minus the derealiziation aspect.


#147298 You Are NOT Going "Crazy"/Schizoprhenic

Posted by egodeath on 08 January 2009 - 08:07 PM

I disagree. I think you are, in fact, going crazy/schizo. =]


#147229 Thoughts about the vastness of the universe

Posted by egodeath on 08 January 2009 - 11:04 AM

I believe just about anybody with DP will say, "Yes." Now I have to go, this post is freaking me out.


#144459 LIST OF MEDS THAT HELP DP/DR

Posted by egodeath on 26 December 2008 - 08:21 PM

I would highly recommend railing half a milligram of kpin, then enjoying a scotch on the rocks. That seems to work for me.


#140702 Would anyone be interested in reading my novel for free?

Posted by egodeath on 11 November 2008 - 02:16 PM

I recently wrote a novel called The Blind Are Leading the Blind (But I Swear I Can See!) about a nameless young man’s search for identity and meaning as he finds love, experiments with drugs, realizes the inevitability of his eventual demise and tries to figure out what he wants to do with his life—all while making the transition from high school to college. The novel begins with the narrator’s leaving New York for a summer in Italy where he meets the girl of his dreams. He returns to a stressful year of college applications at the prestigious Horace Mann School. After being accepted to Georgetown University, the narrator’s life degenerates into an alcohol and drug-fueled frenzy, but somehow he seems to keep everything together, including his long distance relationship with the girl he’s fallen in love with. When he finally sets foot on the Georgetown campus, however, things don’t calm down. Armed with a huge amount of cash from a successful, albeit illegal, fake id business and a new friend who’s as crazy as he is, the narrator embarks on experiments with psychedelic drugs in a misdirected attempt to understand his place in the world that take him to the edge of the universe and the limit of his sanity.

The Blind Are Leading the Blind confronts issues of identity and role confusion that plague most adolescents. Poetic prose describes the narrator’s wildly vacillating mental states while philosophical and sometimes disturbing dialogue forces him to seriously question reality, creating a world of unnerving uncertainty. As he deals with the possibility of cosmic annihilation and feelings of detachment, both from the world and from himself, the narrator draws the only possible conclusion: that he has lost his mind.

The novel is based on my own experiences with drug use and depersonalization disorder. If you're interested contact me at [email protected]. I'd greatly appreciate any questions or comments. The novel is copyrighted and if I do send it to you I'd have to ask that you not share it with anyone else without my express permission.


--egodeath