Let's pretend I had been properly evaluated and diagnosed at age 17. If I had been given the ECT at age 17,
that brought my symptoms into remission at age 57, I might not have had to live a life of mental illness for 40 years.
I might not have had to endure 4 episodes of major depression which cost me two years of my life for each episode, and
horrible suffering. But, that is all "what if". I doubt I would be diagnosed correctly today. I found it easier to diagnose
myself, and have that diagnosis confirmed by medical authorities. If I had known my EEG results at age 17, I would
never have been allowed to serve in the military. I would have never been allowed to operate heavy machinery at a steel
mill. I might never have received the security clearance necessary to work on the US Star Wars Defense projects.
I would have been eligible for social security disability, and I could have lived a life withdrawn..