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forestx5

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In Topic: Lyme or other tickborne illness causing dpdr?

07 July 2020 - 07:59 AM

I considered Lyme as a source for my neurological/psychiatric issues.  I have spent a lot of time outdoors and have been bitten by ticks. I never noticed a bullseye rash or anything like that, but no one

can argue that Lyme causes neuro-psychiatric symptoms.  Lyme is difficult to diagnose reliably, so it is reasonable that anyone suffering chronic neuro-psych symptoms who was ever bitten by a tick,

would want to rule out Lyme. And, that is not as easy as it might be.  On the other hand, there are a lot of other reasons to have neuro-psych symptoms which makes Lyme disease less likely.

I noticed that hamburgers and other meats don't have the same flavor as used to be. Did I lose my taste buds as I aged?  Is it the antibiotics they are using on pork and beef? Or, did some pathogen

I got from a tick bite remove my sense of taste?  LOL.  Llife is sure complicated.


In Topic: Lose memories for emotions

07 July 2020 - 07:47 AM

The eye just takes a picture, but it is the window to the soul.  The soul is the temporal lobe of the brain that analyzes the picture and ascribes meaning to it.  It colors the picture with emotion. It references

memory for additional context for the image. Emotions accompany memories, when things are working as they should.

The temporal lobe is exquisitely prone to insult.  I know I have insulted my temporal lobe because the evidence is in my EEG.  Also, I know what symptoms I experienced as a result of this insult.

I lost all positive emotions.  My family members seemed alien.  They had been reduced to images without emotional coloring because my temporal lobe had been damaged. I could no longer

resonate with my mirror image, by looking through my eyes and into my temporal lobe/soul.. I had become a stranger to myself.


In Topic: What is it like to have dp/dr for decades?

07 July 2020 - 07:35 AM

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven".

 

If your illness degrades you significantly, then it can affect your seasons and time

can go by leaving purpose unfulfilled.  I wasn't really there for important moments

in my life. In my closest relationships, people never knew me.

I didn't know myself.  Eventually, I figured me out, but a lot of water had gone

over the dam.


In Topic: Gap between Initial Panic and Dissociation (Weed induced)

03 July 2020 - 05:14 PM

I posted my hypothesis on another thread.  It is possible that the powerful psychological stress of the "panic attack" has thrown a genetic switch which is responsible for

making a protein which is critical to a neurological process.  A reserve of the protein may cause a delay in consciousness being altered,  of several days.

I got this concept from the book "Genome" by Matt Ridley and I apply it to mental illness without his permission. lol

I had ECT and it was extremely beneficial.  I theorize  that the induced grand mal seizures reset my genetic firmware to factory defaults, allowing my consciousness

to alter back to normal, after 40 years.  Sometimes your body reacts in a way that is harmful to you and I give the mechanics of a heart attack as an example of that.

I don't feel guilty about offering a crazy idea like this.  It's not like I'm selling it. LOL


In Topic: Medication making things worse?

02 July 2020 - 02:05 PM

It is safe to have ECT with dpdr, but you probably wouldn't be having ECT primarily to treat dpdr.  ECT is a safe and effective treatment for major depression.  Not to belittle dpdr, but major depression is a serious

mental illness.  Life threatening at times.  ECT is the most effective treatment for major depression.

It gives the fastest relief for major depression.  I assume the reason it is not a front line treatment is the influence of the pharmacological industry, which has little interest in promoting ECT or dispelling

the dated myths of ECT.  My recurrent major depression was a function of an epileptic syndrome.  My depressions featured severe insomnia and anxiety.  I also experienced a host of

other symptoms such as racing thoughts, intrusive thoughts, extreme fatigue, odd things like exploding head syndrome. I was told my depression was atypical.  I was a complicated case.

Today I can't even remember all the symptoms I experienced, but I remember I once saw a comprehensive list of major depressive symptoms, and I had probably experienced 80% of them.  I didn't experience them all

chronically, but I had experienced them.  I had the symptoms of depression in conjunction with epileptic symptoms such as focal temporal lobe seizures.  I didn't understand any of it, and neither did anyone else.

When I discovered i was suffering from a rare epileptic syndrome, the medical journal said it was difficult to diagnose.  That was certainly my experience.

I didn't have great expectations for ECT.  I underwent it because I was spiraling down into my 5th episode and I didn't think I had the resources to

survive another epic struggle. I had the shocks every other day for 2 weeks and left the hospital and drove myself home.  My depression lifted and in a week I felt a fundamental shift

in my mental processes.  Somehow, I knew I would never have another depressive episode.  And, I no longer have any of the symptoms on that long list.  I do have some damage to my temporal lobe

so my EEGs will never be normal.  I don't have seizures anymore.  I have an occasional migraine aura, but they are nothing like they used to be. I took a maintenance SSRI for 18 months after the ECT.

Then I dropped that because I felt I didn't need it.  Depression and medication free now for 6 years, following 40 years of suffering.  Free at last, free at last......