JoMe, that's an amazing description of this disorder, at least I think so because that is literally EXACTLY how I feel.
although what Im about to say may indirectly contradict what I just said lol.
In response to the OP, yes. I don't think its impossible per se, but it is excruciatingly difficult to put into words. It seems clear to me that DPDR is probably THE most subjectively experienced mental illness and the one in which words are the LEAST effective t in describing it. I also wouldn't be surprised if it's the most misdiagnosed disorder too. Putting symptoms into words is such a subjective process especially when it comes to this disorder (there's the aforementioned contradiction). I think my experience is a testament to that, here's simply why: My disorder in the third month compared to the third week was RADICALLY worse, (it stopped getting worse in January thank god) but what's fascinating is, If I never experienced the change, I could describe the disorder with the same language now that I used back then. I read my old posts describing my symptoms in great detail, and based on that alone, it's like nothing has changed since then, my description still applies, but I know for a fact it has changed unbelievably since.
I think that that's because after a while these feelings are amplified because we are obsessing about them. And if in the begining it was something new and scary, now we know about it and observing it 24/7 and developing new ways of seeing/perceiving it. At least that's my case.
And what I've identified is that basically the auto pilot I'm on, even regarding my thinking, existed before. That was the actual NORMAL state. Because I just got on with life, not thinking about myself, just doing what I was supposed to, thinking about normal day to day problems etc.
But now, that normal autopilot is somehow seen by my brain as being abnormal so it makes me to keep focused on "I'm on autopilot, that's not ok, you MUST be aware of yourself, and JUST yourself every second, you must be super conscious about YOUR awareness of yourself".
And since that is not a normal thing by any means, it's actually a paradox that keeps this going in a circle. And as I said in my post, I'm trying to let it go, and some days are better, but then I wake up and check it, and yes it's still there and there you go, another day, or days, when I end up reading what others say about their experience for hours and hours, just worsening the situation and obsessing to the point where I cannot read about it anymore and just feel exhausted and sick of it.
Yesterday I did a big mistake (as usual) by reading about some cases in my country. And almost everyone was saying that you MUST go to a psychiatrist and take treatment, and I got really freaked out because it lowered my optimism close to 0... Like a lot of people, I have those moments of "ok, no more reading about it" and then... Here I am