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livinginhell333

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#277378 Some Advice

Posted by livinginhell333 on 09 January 2013 - 10:32 PM

Gradually I've been getting better and feeling better, and my DP/DR has lessened in severity, it hasn't gone away, but it's not bothering me as much as it used to a few months back, and i will tell you some things i have done.

For one you cannot give it any energy, do not think about DP/DR. Sure, it might be in your sub-conscious, but don't constantly make it in your conscious. The more you feed it the worse it's going to get, so don't feed into it. Eliminate as much stress and anxiety, that will in turn eliminate depression, and some symptoms will be less severe. Even though you may feel like you aren't yourself, you aren't real or nothing else is, don't give in to the fear and anxiety by obsessing about it. Over-analyzing is a killer. Distract yourself and do things that you used to enjoy doing, even if you don't feel them now eventually they will make you feel good, and you can feel happy. I listen to music, working out and exercising has helped me a lot, also taking supplements and vitamins have helped.

I'm taking fish oils, b12, rhodiola, phosphatidyl serine, aniracetam, piracetam, and also l-theanine sometimes. These have helped lower the anxiety and depression and have also given me energy. I'm also on a low dose of zoloft, which has helped with the OCD and anxiety part of the DP/DR. I am not recovered, but i'm feeling better, and i'm coping a lot better. I enjoy more things i used to and generally been in a good mood, with no anxiety or depression. I think working out and exercising has helped a lot, as well as taking these supplements. Talking to friends and going out sometimes for drinks or to watch a game or do something active and fun is great to. Just try anything to take your mind off the dp/dr feelings. I still feel a bit disconnected from myself and the world, but it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. Once you get past the accept and let go stage, things WILL start to get better, just do whatever makes you feel good. Good luck, i visit this forum only on occasion now, but i felt the need to post something.


#271597 It might be hard to put into practice, but the concept is simple - think diff...

Posted by livinginhell333 on 16 November 2012 - 12:46 PM

I think some of us might have to live with dp/dr most of our lives, now it just depends on how you cope with it. Some days will be worse, if you lessen the severity of it it won't bother you as much. You can live your life, enjoy things again, it's not all hopeless. I feel better than i did a few months ago. Not as OCD, depressed, or anxious, but the dp/dr is still there. The fog has lifted a little but not completely, and i still feel disconnected from my body and my actions, but it's not as severe as it was so it doesn't bother me as much anymore.


#270720 DR getting better, but DP still constant.

Posted by livinginhell333 on 07 November 2012 - 03:24 PM

My derealization has gotten better for the most part. Things still seem unreal, even i do, but it hasn't bothered me as much. I've been less anxious about it, and have tried not to think about it. I've even had a few moments where things have felt real, and i have felt real. I just have to tell myself that i am real and here even if i don't feel like i am. This all takes a lot of of patience and practice, some things are hard to do, but i think i'm getting better gradually.

As far as DP goes it's still there. I still feel the disconnect from my body and a lot of my feelings and emotions. I can still smile, laugh, joke, and hold conversations and be social with people however, so i'm glad i can do that, and things have been a little more manageable. I still feel on autopilot though, and every action feels like someone else, i'm still the observer. I know that i can't get rid of all the symptoms at once, but as long as some dissipate gradually, it's better than having all the symptoms i guess.


#269747 Am i in the right place?

Posted by livinginhell333 on 27 October 2012 - 10:40 PM

i can say the severity lessens with time, and you learn to cope with it. Patience is a must. Find interests, hobbies, anything, even if it's just watching a funny tv show or watching a movie. Any sort of distraction with dp helps you temporarily, but at least it helps. Being with good people, talking, laughing, enjoying ourself. I still have had fun with dp/dr. It's not impossible. It's really tough that everything is unreal, even yourself feels unreal. Believe me, i feel this shit every fucking day and i ask why i deal with this numerous times. Sometimes i say fuck it, and end up enjoying doing something. It's tough dealing with this, but it makes you stronger and able to deal with other shit people can't handle. So, i think if we can deal with this we can deal with anything.


#269596 Fleeting moments of reality

Posted by livinginhell333 on 25 October 2012 - 09:22 PM

The past couple of days i have been getting fleeting moments of reality, but they don't last very long. I wish they would last longer. I am also able to remember more memories of the past and memory and brain fog has been lifting, perhaps the derealization is starting to lift? I'll get these fleeting of reality and being real but they last like a few seconds or so and then right back to the dp/dr. I hope this is a good thing. Little by little i guess.


#269589 Something Strange

Posted by livinginhell333 on 25 October 2012 - 06:45 PM

Yes, i feel this exact same way lately and you worded it perfectly. I will have short periods of like this is real, and my thoughts will seem real and even some memories. I'll remember certain things from the past, and i tell myself if i remember it then it must be real, and i must be real, but it doesn't last very long. Like a few seconds of clarity, then it goes back to the dreamy, foggy, unreality. I hope it's a good thing. Today my sense of smell was even a bit better, and i was doing pretty well most of the day, until i looked in the mirror again and didn't recognize myself. I swear looking at myself or my reflection scares me and sets me back into the dp/dr state if i'm not thinking about it.


#269459 Relationships aka bf/gf

Posted by livinginhell333 on 23 October 2012 - 09:50 PM

I had someone, but the DP stressed him out so I had to end it. The emotional detachment is what upset him the most. He wasn't very supportive of it either. My friends also called him abusive which upset him too. He already had depression so I didn't want him to do something because the rocky relationship.


that's a good thing you did that then before it got worse.


#269006 unreality interfering with my life

Posted by livinginhell333 on 18 October 2012 - 08:11 PM

That's a good idea. Just have some time to myself, but not too much time to myself where it's actually self-destructing. Just do a couple things to take my mind off of it.


#268490 We gotta say fuck DP

Posted by livinginhell333 on 13 October 2012 - 12:40 AM

and just live, we can't sulk. We still have to live our lives and try to do shit we used to do. Do things that we enjoy and see if it can make us a little bit happy. Yeah we don't feel here and connected. A lot of times i feel like i'm not even breathing and i have to check to see if my heart is still breathing, and take deep breaths to make sure i'm here. I try anything to make me feel grounded, some work and other's don't, but the point is we can still have fun even though our reality is tainted. Maybe DP/DR protects us from shit so we don't get hurt or feel the real pain. It doesn't mean we cannot not feel, just means its blocked.

To me i feel like there is a cloud, a veil, a fog, over everything and yes it does suck, but i still have to try to live my life and i have been doing that for the most part. It's only when i stop and really think about dp/dr, and how unreal and foggy everything is, that's when it starts to bother me. So, we can't let this take control of us, because it does feed off fear. We have to find a way to live in unreality, no matter how hard. We have to just make an attempt. Can't really accomplish much sitting at home thinking about this shit all day long, because in the end it really brings us back. When you get glimmers and signs of reality just hang on to them. I have had glimpses. I'm not sure if i'll ever be fully back in reality, but i do get glimpses. I have fears like everyone else. I'm afraid of mirrors, i'm afraid of myself and my own reflection. Most of the time i don't feel here and like i'm on auto-pilot, but i've adjusted. I think that is key is to make adjustments and try to act normal so people think you are. We all put of fronts well. We are great actors maybe we should even try acting, might be something we are good at. Fake it till you make it is pretty damn cliche* but it's what we have to do to make any progress.

We have to accept that we might not be normal as we were before, or feel here or in reality, but it doesn't mean we can't fucking live our lives, enjoy ourselves, and at least try to have fun. I've been negative lately, but i'm trying to be more positive, because positive thinking does really help anyone that has our situation. The disconnection and unreality will always be there, and it's very easy to think about when it's so debilitating and troublesome, i've been there, i'm still there, but i'm realizing the only way out is to just live with it. Time won't wait for us, although i wish it would. Just hang on and adjust when need to be. I didn't mean to write so much, but i did. Guess i had a lot to say.


#268299 What helps everyone?

Posted by livinginhell333 on 10 October 2012 - 07:46 PM

maybe i need adderall lol, but chewing gum helps me as well.


#268279 What helps everyone?

Posted by livinginhell333 on 10 October 2012 - 05:36 PM

eyelids? Thats interesting...i'll try that out!


#268211 My theory

Posted by livinginhell333 on 09 October 2012 - 07:43 PM

true kate, and i don't what the hell is real anymore, or what "reality" is, so i can't answer that question honestly.


#267606 How do you feel in busy places like the mall?

Posted by livinginhell333 on 03 October 2012 - 06:03 PM

i hate malls, and i feel like i'm in a video game everywhere i go, everything is so dream like.


#266759 what do you guys think?

Posted by livinginhell333 on 27 September 2012 - 12:23 PM

you need to stop repeating yourself and posting the same stuff man, only so much we can do. see a doctor that can prescribe medicine.


#266758 i have to try.

Posted by livinginhell333 on 27 September 2012 - 12:23 PM

This is the right state of mind you should have. this is easier said than done. I sometimes feel i have to live for others to, make others happy, but you also need to focus on yourself. Maybe thats the problem we focus too much on ourselves, and the only way to make ourselves happy and give a semblance of purpose to our lives is to make other people happy i guess.