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#223957 DP Job Ideas. Please contribute.

Posted by pfpc on 06 March 2011 - 01:39 PM

Jobs since dp:

1) Worked in a used book shop -- completely doable, even if your head is on fire.
2) Gone back to working in sales -- horrible, stressful and completely demoralizing.
3) Worked in a restaurant -- Completely doable, even enjoyable. Also, being around people all day got rid of the "blank head."
4) Gone back to an office job as a project manager -- horrible, stressful and completely demoralizing.

Obvious pattern, right? At least for my point of view, I would pick a job where you are around people all day and doesn't really require you to think too much. There's a lot to be said for jobs that are more physical in nature or even repetitive. Not sure, psychologically, why that would be, but I do know that once I start messing around with more intellectually demanding pursuits, I don't do well at all.


#159415 Maybe this will help...

Posted by pfpc on 23 April 2009 - 12:36 AM

I haven't posted for a while mainly because I just found myself adapting to the dp. My lowest point was about 2.5 years ago. I was completely brain dead. Had no affect. Blank head. Couldn't hold an intelligent conversation. Huge amounts of social anxiety, etc, etc (you've heard it all before I'm sure). A lot of my dp was aggravated by meds. Well over the last two years, things have been changing gradually. I was getting my mind back. Last summer I would venture to say that I had all my intellectual faculties back and a little emotional response too. Three months ago, I realised something about myself that I found, at least to me, to be quite profound. I felt somehow totally liberated and walked around all week with a big grin on my face. Then one afternoon I went for a walk in town and my dr dropped precipitously. This lasted maybe three hours. I panicked of course, not wanting it to go away, but it did. Then the next day I started to feel a little dizzy and very tired and I noticed that I was feeling very differently about myself...almost like a personality shift. Then the bottom dropped out of my skull. For the next four weeks I experienced massive changes in my dp...mostly swinging between mild hyper-reality and super high hyper-reality. In short, I felt present to the extreme. Food tasted amazing. People looked extremely real, etc. Accompanying this was a tingling sensation which started in my feet, went to my hands and then to my whole body. One evening I was lying in bed and the tingling got so intense that I started to have electric current sensation running up my spine and into the base of my head. It was intense and I actually found myself liking it, as if it were an acknowledgment that my brain was waking up again. I was still having this weird personality shift that I didn't understand until one day about a month ago I woke up and realised that I was back to the person that I was six years ago. It was existentially the weirdest experience I ever had (beating even the crappy dream state). I'm still not sure what happened. I try not to question it too much.

Well the last month has been rocky. I'm not completely out of the woods and I still have setbacks every few days, but I don't feel limited by the dp anymore. I'll keep updating this every few weeks if anyone is interested.

Cheers


#66035 dreamlike symtoms vs lack of emotion,pleasure or both?

Posted by pfpc on 21 March 2006 - 11:41 PM

For me the sensations (or lack of) have been mutually exclusive. At the outset, I experience the dreamlike state. Then that slowly receded. Several months later, I started to experience the lack of emotions.


#2299 Where is everyone from?

Posted by pfpc on 30 August 2004 - 05:25 PM

Baltimore, MD