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kenc127

Member Since 09 Aug 2004
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#10193 RANDOM THOUGHTS, INTRUSIVE WORDS ETC

Posted by kenc127 on 26 October 2004 - 09:26 PM

High anxiety can cause racing thoughts. Sometimes 2 disjoint memories or thoughts can come together as one and leave you thinking, "Where the hell did that come from?" To the person with DP, we think of this as a sign of illness. To the DP free person, it is dismissed as some random thought. Trust me, its nothing. You have nothing to worry about.


#2121 What is DP/DR like for you?

Posted by kenc127 on 29 August 2004 - 01:47 AM

Feel as though i'm about to lose control and start screaming, frantically skipping naked down the street shaking my boobs with my hands and whistling and shrieking, with my eyes popping out of my head....or something along those lines.


lmao. that is simply hilarious. I needed that, thank you snowy.


#2094 What is DP/DR like for you?

Posted by kenc127 on 28 August 2004 - 05:54 PM

ok, what I mean by maddening is:

- excessive worry about what is happening, even though nothing is
- excessive worry that I'm going nuts, even though I'm not
- excessive worry that I won't be around a very long time, even though I probably will
- endless what-ifs about what may or may not happen
- anxiety about aches and pains and what they may or may not mean
- anxiety about the inability at times to think outside of myself, and focus on my surroundings, and when I can I notice how distorted they look
- sadness at the thought of never seeing my environment the same way again. It looks so fake, like everyhting is made in blocks and 2 dimensional. People look exaggerated or like plastic. You know they are still human, but you still feel as if you've lost connection with them
- sadness about how outgoing and excited about life I used to be, and now I'm just the opposite. I've become irritable, bitter, sad, introverted, and emotional and lack drive to succeed
- sad about the fact I don't feel the same emotional connection to activities I once enjoyed such as sex, school, time with friends family, and vacations

This is what I mean by maddening. Things get so tough that becoming psychotic would be almost a blessing because I wouldn't have to deal with all the anxiety of the above. When my DP isn't bad, it means that some or all of the above are either absent or dissipating. As a word of encouragement, there are more good days than bad days now, whereas 2 months ago, I had 1 good day for every 5 bad ones. Hope this helps.


#2078 What is DP/DR like for you?

Posted by kenc127 on 28 August 2004 - 02:59 PM

some days its not bothersome, other days its completely maddening. Its got a mind of its own. It does seem to get better when I'm focused on other tasks though.