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01 August 2020 - 04:42 PM


New here. So about 2 months ago I woke up one day and my whole world has changed I had absolutely no stresses in my life nothing I can think of that would have caused this. This is why I feel like I’m incurable because it’s usually caused my trauma, anxiety, stress, drugs right? I had none of that. My life was just normal and then one day just randomly woke up with it. I am incredibly terrified. It’s like my entire memory has been wiped out, The most terrifying part is I have a 2 year old daughter, obviously raised her since the day I gave birth to her but since that day 2 months ago I look at her and it’s like I don’t recognise her like I’m seeing her for the first time and I am so upset that I feel this disconnection it feels like she’s not even mine the memories I do have of us together it’s like it’s not me. My house seems unfamiliar. My boyfriend of 3 years seems unfamiliar like I don’t even know him, my parents seem unfamiliar, EVERYTHING I KNOW JUST SEEMS STRANGE AND UNFAMILIAR. I am petrified that I will stay this way forever that my memories and connection to my memories wont come back It just feels they are just gone. Its like I’ve forgotten my whole life and I’m only 22 for goodness sake. Time perception is just gone I’m living in this second and that is it from one second to the next. Don’t even ask me what happened an hour ago because that feels like last week. And I’ll be damned if I can remember anyway as my short term memory is gone aswell. My brain is just absolutely empty. I am in constant dream like state. No emotions and I mean 0 EMOTIONS. NOTHING. I feel nothing for anything. It’s like my soul is in space and I’m just floating around, not actually participating in life, I’m just an observer. I am not in my body, can’t even feel myself sitting in this chair I’m on. Literally the day before that day I was perfectly normal happy funny crazy me just living my normal life and then this happens. It has ruined my life. Everyday I wake up just scared to even open my eyes just to feel like this, what is the point in living when I don’t feel alive? I know it hasn’t been long but everyday I wake up the same please someone tell me it’s possible to go back to how used to be please tell me my memories will come back. Please. I can not live like this. I want to look at my daughter and feel the love again😭