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I'm losing hope

09 August 2020 - 05:49 PM

Hi, I would like to have some advice. I have had DR for 6 years with a slight degree. It increased with stress and certain situations, it never left me for a moment. Now, after breaking up with my girlfriend, I got general anxiety and strong DR and have no idea what to do now. Earlier I had no fears about it, unless I looked at the wall and it seemed different. I'm afraid that now this 6-year-old DR has merged with what is now and will never disappear. I feel like committing suicide, I don't have the strength for it all the time I'm crying I'm so lost that I feel that I only have suicide left. In 3 days I have behavioral therapy and I'm afraid to go to it, I'm afraid of not understanding. Nobody understands me; (Please help. I can't accept, I don't know what it means, it seemed to me that I accepted this state for 6 years.

 

 

 

I don't know why the previous state persisted

 


Hi i am Victor from Poland and this is my story ! :)

24 July 2020 - 07:37 PM

Hi, I'm Viktor and I'm 21 years old and I'm from Poland :)


My derealization started 6 years ago after a marijuana-induced panic attack. It manifested itself slightly with a change of surroundings and a squeal in the ears. I have been living with it normally for 6 years, I did not wonder what it is, on the Polish forum I read that sometimes it is like that after marijuana and to ignore it and live with it. I have lived with it until now, I did not mind this strange state because it did not affect my life. After these 6 years I broke up with my girlfriend, it was a strong emotional experience for me, I could not stand it, I got depressed and anxious about hurting someone, schizophrenia, and other mental illnesses. I was cut off from the world, my feelings, I lost my passions ...
After fears: schizophrenia, border, generalized anxiety
I started to fear Derealization / Depersonalization

I remembered that I had some parts of it for 6 years and it didn't pass so I added to myself that the state in which I am now will not go away either, I have no idea what I was doing, I allowed these states wrong, I was never afraid of them. I see that there are more of us abroad, that's why I registered on this forum and I hope you will help me. In Poland, doctors do not want to talk about derealization / depersonalization, they avoid this topic. They say it's a symptom of anxiety but I haven't had any anxiety in these 6 years. Now that I have it, I feel it's over, I have no one to turn to. In Poland, we have only one person who knows about DP and fought with it for 5 years, finally gave up and allowed her to do so in a year. But I never struggled with it, can you give me some advice? Thank you

 

 

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