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#628734 A walk in the park / Vent

Posted by Numb_1993 on 07 February 2021 - 04:30 AM

The last time i had the unfortunate encounter with emotional numbness for 5 months 4 years ago seems now like a walk in the park for me. Back then i didn't know about this website, i didn't know about how long some people are suffering with this and i didn't know it's so hard to get out of this. I was lucky i got on a med which completely cured me after only 5 months. Now i'm 8 months in no sign of getting better.. doctors don't know how to help and don't give a shit anymore. I'm helpless, my parents are helpless.. everybody is. There are people living life normally with this or are able to function but i am not ..i'm probably the weakest of all numb people. I can't believe I have an illness which robs me of everything. I finished my training as a doctors assistant before i got into this shit again and broke up with my boyfriend..all i wanted was to work.. finally save some money and enjoy beeing i'm left with noooo fucking emotions unable to do anything i had planned because there is just no point in it. It's not fair it's just so fucked up ..i tried a lot of meds already..i just have little hope left one of the few remaining meds will work wonders like 4 years ago and give me my emotions back at least a little.. otherwise i refuse to keep on living this fucked up life i was given ! End of vent.

#628374 No Help anywhere

Posted by Numb_1993 on 15 January 2021 - 07:51 AM

It wasn't caused by any substances ..i just had a stressful period and suffered from panic attacks some months prior to this.

#628246 Development of more advanced rTMS equipment.

Posted by Numb_1993 on 09 January 2021 - 12:52 PM

Thanks a lot for your answer ! It's just so devastating to not really know what to do..but i think as in every mental illness patience is the key. The recommendation of this publication you mentioned sounds like an good approach to get more information about the context of the different brain areas.I will definitely check out the clinic in hungary and also Dr. Tamme suggested a clinic in Hamburg .. they have deep TMS and a brainsway helmet but they don't have dp listed on their website but i will try to contact them. Regarding the MRI i already got one done some months ago so i'm safe with that.

#628148 my illness will take my very lovely girlfriend from me

Posted by Numb_1993 on 05 January 2021 - 06:54 AM

Just wait and be patient with the tms treatment..then you could also try some meds if it would not be successful.

#628054 i will try next week neuronavigated tms

Posted by Numb_1993 on 01 January 2021 - 07:44 AM

Good luck laminaseri ..i can't wait to hear your report !